There,
In You
Author:
Paulenak ~ toukalah@hotmail.com
Rating:
NC-18 (deals with death, abuse and loss)
Disclaimer:
Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon.
Feedback:
Is much appreciated.
Author's
Note: Sorry if I offend anyone with this fic, it was
inspired by the song 'Family Portrait' by 'Pink' but is not a SF.
**
There,
In You
**
I
feel my mother's pain. I hear her wails and taste her tears. I lash out with
tiny feet and arms, and immediately feeling the soothing pressure of her touch
even though her hand never touches mine.
Stop
the screaming... Stop the yelling... I may not be there yet but I hear it
all... It’s even worse when I feel it... Is this what you will be bringing me
into?
There’s
a lot of noise mommy and I'm scared...
You’re
crying again... Always again... But at least the
yelling has stopped - For now. I comfort you with every move I make... Do you
feel me?
Are
you okay mommy? I felt the pressure again... Stronger this time...
I
feel everything in your world as you do? Every hurtful word, every hurtful
blow... Even though I still have yet to be introduced to your world.
I
feel tired mommy... Is he coming back? Will it all start again? Is this what a
family is? If so mommy I don’t want to be included.
Why
does he hate me so...
**
She
repulsed him, in front of all these people and the entire federation her lie
had been uncovered... but still she clung to it.
How
could he believe her... the trust was so far past gone.
He
shot daggers at her from across the ring, his control so tainted with anger he
didn't realize what he had done until he saw her lying on the ring floor
clutching her stomach.
His
face that was so filled with disdain and hatred a moment before now stained
with regret and guilt as he saw the stain that darkened the white wedding dress
she wore.
**
You’re
bleeding mommy... I can see you. I can see everyone... so many people... so
many lights... you’re so beautiful... I'm sorry for the pain I'm causing you
mommy but I promise it wont last long...
I'm
not here alone mommy... someone is holding my hand... and it's such a gentle
touch... no more pressure...
Is
that my uncle Shane rushing towards you mommy? You always told me
I
would like him and I can see now that I would have... I'm glad you won’t be
alone...
Maybe
now daddy will stay...
I
have to leave you now mommy, my new family is waiting... I will not forget
where I was first... there, in you... I love you...
If you can hear me daddy... I forgive you...