So Beautiful

Author: PaulenaK ~ toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Song used is ‘So

Beautiful’ by Pete Murray.

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

~Denotes song lyrics~

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So Beautiful

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~Found myself the other day~

~In the backyard of a friends place~

~Thinking about you~

~Thinking of the crowds your in~

~What your up to, where you’ve been~

~Just thinking~

~And all the clothes that you wear~

~And the colour in your hair~

~Shouldn’t change you~

~Now you tell me why its so~

~Your bigger then mighty Joe~

~At least you think so~

What happened?

What happened between here and there to make you the man you are today?

Where’s the man I knew? The man I could turn to with any problem, the man

who I shared my deepest darkest desires too. Where is he? Because the man I

see now with his new hair curt, wool lined denim jacket and rugged jeans

is not the man I fell in love with.

I don’t know who ‘that’ man is.

The man I knew wouldn’t be running behind his best friends back, plotting

and scheming the man’s downfall. The man I knew wouldn’t be trying to wedge

a gap as big as the Grand Canyon between two people who obviously have

feelings for one another.

Unless of course, ‘you’ yourself have feelings for the woman in question and

if so, where does that leave me?

~God my fingers burn~

~Now when I think of touching your hair~

~You have changed so much that I don’t know~

~If I can call you and tell you I care~

~And I would love to bring you down~

~Plant your feet back on the ground~

Every time that thought enters my head I just want to wrap my fingers around

your neck and squeeze some sense back up to that brain of yours. Make you

see how much of an ass your being and how much your actions and

‘non-actions’ are hurting me.

But I don’t, I grin and I bare it. For how long that will continue is

anyone’s guess, I do know one thing though, I know that sooner rather then

later someone, maybe even me, is going to give you the reality check you so

deserve.

~Threw my smoke back on the ground~

~Turned my head and I heard the sound~

~That reminded me~

~Of the days so young and sweet~

~Always so much fun for me~

~At least I thought so~

~And now you think you’re so damn fine~

~You can rule the world, though not mine~

~I don’t think so~

The roar of the crowd resounded throughout the backstage area, through the

halls and right into the divas locker room and I can’t help the laugh that

finds its way up my throat as I sit here alone.

That’s another thing that’s changed the roar of the crowd. All favouritism

the crowd held for you flew out the window along time ago.

I know I can’t talk, I know I’m liked even less among the fans, but at least

they don’t all out hate me or my baby face turn. Yeah, that’s right. You may

soon hear the crowd chant my name and see ‘Marry Me Victoria’ signs held

among the now adoring fans.

The difference I think between you and I was that I played my heel character

to the hilt because it was expected of me. Yet you allowed your character to

seep into the real you, the real Christian.

You think you can just play with the lives of others like some great

puppeteer putting on a show for his own amusement. Playing the role of God

in deciding who gets to be happy and who don’t.

Well, news flash. Its working, some would even say too well, I know I have.

Thinking about it almost makes me wish I had a cigarette.

Almost.

~God my fingers burn~

~Now when I think of touching your hair~

~You have changed so much that I don’t know~

~If I can call you and tell you I care~

~And I would love to bring you down~

~Plant your feet back on the ground~

Yet another reason why you’re not worthy of my affections, yet another show

of how much I have really come to mean to you and I hate myself for feeling

this way, for allowing you to ‘make’ me feel this way.

I wish I knew what it is you are looking for in life, if I did maybe then

I’d be able to bring back the man I once knew.

But now I’m thinking that’s a lost cause.

Just like us.

~Now this scene that your in~

~And the people that you’ve been with~

~Just get to me~

~But you think I’m not as cool~

~As you are so beautiful~

~But who you fooling~

~Well I’m here to tell you babe~

~The game you’re in is just a game~

~So damn pretentious~

Now you’re aligning yourself with the likes of Matt Hardy, who is double the

prick you’re turning out to be.

I don’t get it.

What are you hoping to accomplish by turning your back on the ones who

really care, by turning your back on me.

‘You are nothing without the people you love.’

You told me that once and I believed you. I believed all your words about

forever and now I’m finding out that that’s all they were. Words.

Stevie tried to warn me, but I brushed all his warnings aside because I

wanted to believe in you. Believe in what we had.

I was the fool then, I admit it, but you are the fool now.

~God my fingers burn~

~Now when I think of touching your hair~

~You have changed so much that I don’t know~

~If I can call you and tell you I care~

~And I would love to bring you down~

~Plant your feet back on the ground~

“I loved you… more then anything in this world.” Victoria whispered to the

empty room. “It’s just too bad the bigger you’re head got, the more it over

shadowed the important things. The more it over shadowed me.”

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