No, Not Me, Not I

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story idea which is a work of fiction. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. The song used is

'Not Me. Not I' by 'Delta Goodrem.'

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~Denotes Song Lyrics~

Not Me, Not I

~You mixed me up for someone who would fall apart without you~

~Yeah you broke my heart the first time, but I'll get over that too~

~It's hard to find the reasons, who can see the rhyme?~

~I guess that we were seasons out of time~

~I guess you didn't know me~

It hurt back then.

Hearing the words 'She's back' spill from your lips, those two little

words holding more power behind them then a mack truck

travelling down a deserted highway at full speed.

Had it been a year already?

Guess time really does fly when you’re having fun.

I had shrugged my indifference to hearing your words and even

managed a smile, willing myself to keep it there and to keep it

bright, even though in my heart I was already admitting to myself

that that smile would probably be my last.

~If you think love is blind, that I wouldn't see the flaws behind the lines~

~Surprised that I caught you out on every single time that you lied~

~Did you think that every time I'd see you I would cry~

~No not me, not I, not I, no not me, Not I~

Do you remember when you told me that you loved me?

I do.

It was four months into our being together. Amazing how they came

a lot more frequently after that. Yet always in the back of my mind I

knew it wasn't true. I knew it was just something you said for the

sake of saying it.

Who knows, maybe you were just practicing on me and now that

she's back you can see if all your practice really has made perfect.

If I were grading your declaration there's no doubt in my mind that

you would get an A+, after all, who would know better of your

performance then the one you practiced on?

That's one of the things that helps keep the smile on my face and

the spring in my step as I pass you both in the hallway or the

car park. Hell, there was even that one time we all shared an

elevator up to our rooms, did you think it was a cruel twist of fate

that I got put in the room across from you? Forcing me to keep my

smile in pace whilst she preceded you into your room. An action I

remember doing not so long ago.

Told you you'd get an A+.

~The story goes on without you, there’s got to be another ending~

~Yeah you broke my heart, it wont be the last time~

~But I'll get over them too~

~As a new door opens, we close the ones behind~

~And if you search your soul, I know you'll find, you never really

knew me~

Should have prepared myself better hey, should have kept the

walls up around my heart, but you know, a year is along time and

gee, I never really thought she'd come back.

Yet, come back she did and with it came the start of a new chapter

in both our lives.

Only difference is, I'm beginning this chapter alone.

~If you think love is blind, that I wouldn't see the flaws behind the lines~

~Surprised that I caught you out on every single time that you lied~

~Did you think that every time I'd see you I would cry~

~No not me, not I, not I, no not me, Not I~

There were a lot of things wrong with you and I. I see that now.

Number one being you’re whispered 'I love you's' said in the heat of

the moment, which were exactly that in duration and meaning.

Fleeting in time and false in authenticity.

Pity I didn't see it back then.

Number two being the mysterious phone calls and extended visits to

Jericho's room. Like I couldn't see what was going on, I mean give me

some credit.

I just wish I had the strength back then to walk out on my own

merits without you having to show me the way.

~All you said to me~

~All you promised me~

~All the mystery, never did believe~

~No I never cry, no I never, not me, not I~

There's only one way I know of to get relief from this inner pain I

feel and that's inside the squared circle with your precious Lita as

my opponent.

That's when I pay you back for all the 'I love you's' you showered

on me once upon a time. For all the broken promise's that flowed

easily from your lips.

Yep, I found out along time ago that the way to hurt you is to hurt

the one you love. That's how I know you never really loved me.

~If you think love is blind, that I wouldn't see the flaws behind the lines~

~Surprised that I caught you out on every single time that you lied~

~Did you think that every time I'd see you I would cry~

~No not me, not I, not I, no not me, Not I~

"Hey Molly."

My forced smile is back in place just for you.

"Hey Christian."

I don’t have to watch to know that you’re crossing the room towards

her, in my mind I'm already seeing her rise out of her seat to meet

you, her arms slipping around your waist while your fingers weave

through the hair at her back before you smile and lean down to

capture her lips with your own.

It was the same with me, you see, I remember everything.

'Yep. It had hurt back then.' Molly told herself, shaking her head to

shut out the perfect picture Christian and Lita made in her mind. 'All I need is for

it to not hurt now.'

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