The Lost Way to
Love Series
You’re Still in My
Soul
Author:
Genta ~ gentah@yahoo.com
Distribution: Just let me know
Disclaimer:
I don’t own anyone just the idea. Vince owns the superstars. Superstars own
themselves personally. The song used Let me let go by
Faith Hill. Lyrics are enclosed at the end.
Rating:
PG-13
Characters:
Tori (Terri Poch) Shane McMahon, Marissa McMahon
Summary: Tori tries to rid
herself of Shane
Terri was beside herself. It had been
seven years since Shane graced her presence. He was the one who let her know
her contract would not be renewed. He slept with her one last time after he fronted
money for her to open her Yoga business. He said he loved her and would keep in
touch. The called each other twice a week. Shane never understood her
loneliness. He had Marissa at home not to mention whomever he charmed to be his
piece on the road.
So it was obvious why her dis-temperment was so high. As time went on the phone calls
decreased. In a matter of five months, Terri was just a faded memory for him.
Terri had a constant reminder of Shane. They shared a child. A little girl that
was happy just being a Poch. Shalon Emlynn Poch was Terri most prized
possession. Terri smiled at the thought of
Terri tried to deny that she had
missed Shane. She dated but nothing ever became serious. There were various
excuses. The one most often used was Shalon of course. For a couple of years,
Terri held onto the notion Shane would come back to her. But Shane insisted
that staying with Marisa would be for the best. But every time she glanced at
Shalon, she knew he was still in her heart.
Terri tried to be happy for Shane
and Marissa when they had a boy. It hurt her though when she thought about what
Shane would give his son. Things and time that he never gave
to Shalon. She had finally gotten off the dead end road of him being a
part of Shalon’s life. But it didn’t happen. Now that she’s in school and is
beginning to develop into someone. Shane wants to step in. She caught Shane’s
glimpses. She wrung her hands and turned from him. She felt him behind her. He
wanted to develop a relationship with Shalon. Terri knew her answer was
required. If she refused, McMahon money would take Shalon quicker than a moth
would go to a flame. Terri reluctantly agreed.
Terri realized Shane had not
admitted their indiscretion. Otherwise, Shalon would be a McMahon. Terri
noticed something in Shane’s eyes. She tried to shake the notion. But as he
lingered even after Shalon went to bed, she knew what Shane wanted. She wanted
to say no. She wanted to demand that he leave and let her go. But as he kissed
her, she quickly realized that he was still in her soul.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I thought it was over, baby
We said our goodbyes
But I can't go a day without your
face
Goin' through my mind
In fact, not a single minute
Passes without you in it
Your voice, your touch
memories of your love
Are with me all of the time
Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best,
why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul, let me let
go
I talked to you the other day
Looks like you made your escape
You put us behind, no matter how I
try
I can't do the same
Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
It just isn't right,
I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road
Let me let go, darlin',
won't you
I just gotta know, yeah
If this is for the best
why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul, let me let
go
The lights of this strange city are shinin'
But they don't hold no fascination for me
I try to find the bright side, baby
But everywhere I look
everywhere I turn, you're all I see
Let me let go, baby, won't you
Let me let go
It just isn't right,
I've been two thousands miles
Down a dead-end road
Oh, let me go, darlin',
won't you
I just gotta know
If this is for the best,
why are you still in my heart
Yeah, you're still in my soul, let
me let go
Let me let go, let me let go
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The Pain Inside
Author: Genta ~ Gentah@yahoo.com
Rating:
PG-13
Content:
fluff
Disclaimer:
I own anyone Shalon. I am borrowing the song from Faith Evans and the
characters I took while Vince was not looking well except for Terri Poch… The
lyrics are at the end
Distribution:
just put my name and email on it … if you want it and let me know!
Characters:
Terri Poch, Shalon Poch, Shane McMahon, Marissa McMahon
Summary:
Terri tries to understand what she has with Shane
She went to
check on Shalon just to pass time. She was waiting for Shane to call. She tried
not to hold on too much hope that he would keep in touch. Terri learned to
count the days. She was worried that Shane would stop calling and coming. She
did not want Shalon to go through the anguish she did. Shane had this alluring
charm about him. Shalon was a seven year girl who desired to have her father
around.
Terri was
remorseful about being Shane’s lover again. But it was satisfying but not
exactly dependable. She was certain this time was a little different. She hoped
her coziness with Shane would not backfire. She had three weeks until she saw
him again. She lived and longed for that day, Terri’s watch dinged and she
headed to the bathroom. May be she would have good news to share with him.
Terri
stopped before she got to the bathroom. But did she really want to go through
being a single mother again? She wasn’t naïve he would never leave Marissa.
Divorce was a word unknown to the McMahons. Terri walked to the sink and
sighed. She was tired of looking like the heartless bitch. She wanted her
family to be completed. Yet no one wanted to fill the void. No one would take
the blame for the situation. Terri threw the pregnancy test away. She brushed
her hair out and walked to look in on Shalon. She smiled and head to her room.
She slipped into an oversized Dx shirt. She climbed
into her bed. She reached to turn out the light. She startled herself by
thinking someone was at the corner of her bed. It was as it always had been
just the reflections of Shane’s silhouette. She forcibly closed her eyes. He
would exist in her dreams too.
Terri
recognizes this dream. It is the one she has the most. Shane, Shalon, a newborn
baby and Terri are at the beach having a great day. Marissa shows up and starts
yelling at Shane. She pauses as she glances at Shalon then at Shane. Her dream
has become her worst nightmare. That’s not how Marissa should find out. Terri
awakens in a cold sweat. So many nights she has lost sleep. So many nights she
has wished to awaken and Shane to hold her and wipe her tears away. Terri
sighed as she moved to get a washcloth. There was one thing she knew as true.
Love can’t hide the pain inside.
Tears on my pillow keep falling
And I'm crying over you, crying over
you
How long will the time last before
my heart
Is blessed to see the day I'm back
with you, the day I'm back with you
See I'm yearning for you baby,
constantly I'm reminscing
Always think bout the things we used
to do
And I'm singing baby
Chorus: x2
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Love can't hide
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
The pain inside
Am I wrong for love that's been lost
and found
Looking for someone to make the
claim, oh tell me
Why am I an example of heart turned cold
Looking for someone to take the
blame, won't nobody take it for me baby
Reflections of your silhouette at
the corners of my bed
I try to close my eyes and go to
sleep, still I see you in my dream
Chorus x2
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Love can't hide
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
The pain inside
(ad libs)
Bridge:
Are my dreams of love a mirage of paradise
As the weeks turn to months
And so many sleepless nights
For the day I pray my tears will
wipe away
You'll hold me in your loving arms
always
Chorus x2
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Love can't hide
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
The pain inside
(ad libs)
Bridge:
Are my dreams of love a mirage of paradise
As the weeks turn to months
And so many sleepless nights
For the day I pray my tears will
wipe away
You'll hold me in your loving arms
always
Chorus x4
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Love can't hide
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
Bop ba da ba da
The pain inside
(ad libs)
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Tell me who
Parts/Chapters: 3 of 7 (I believe)
Author: Genta ~ gentah@yahoo.com
Song: Tell me who by Tamia; lyrics
enclosed at the end
Ratings: PG-13
Contents/Warnings: suspicions
Characters: Marissa and Shane
McMahon
Disclaimers: I own only the story.
Character names are more in likely trademarked to WWE. Personal names belong to
the people. Song is by Tamia
Distributions: just ask…
Spoilers: none
Summary: Marissa has become
suspicious of Shane’s actions
Marissa sat and played with Declan.
She tried to put her feelings aside for the longest time. She always felt that
Shane had someone on the side but she could never prove it. However, last
night, something wasn’t right. She tried to chalk it up to the traveling but he
was so distracted. He called and told her he would be home sooner than he
thought. She wanted to make it work for her son’s sake.
Marissa wasn’t crazy. But may be
she had made herself that way. Even when they where dating she heard about him
dating one of the female wrestlers. Stephanie would not give her a direct
answer, neither would anyone else. Linda told her it was from having Declan and
feelings that she was not able to satisfy Shane. At first that is what she
wanted to believe.
Shane would start to stutter names.
Marissa found receipts for toys and clothes that were for a girl. He would take
trips that no one could tell her the purpose of them. He was always tired. He
would leave early and return late. Marissa sighed as she remembered how Shane
touched her. It was not the way he used to touch her. Marissa paused as Shane
entered the room and took Declan in his arms. Marissa sighed and knew it was
now or never.
“Shane, we need to talk but I want
you to hear me out before you say anything. I’ve noticed a change in you.
You’re secretive, you’re tired, and you’re excluding me. I want to know what
you’re hiding. This is not a new feeling for me. There was always someone else.
I want to know who she is. If I’m wrong, tell me. You take mysterious trips.
You buy things for a seven year old girl. You act strangely and I can no longer
dismiss your actions. Who is the other woman and stop lying…?” Marissa said as
she began to cry.
Shane held Declan and knew what he
had to do. He had to be more conspicuous about how he took care of Shalon and
Terri. He loves Marissa and Declan. He took a deep breath. He explained to
Marissa a half truth about Terri. Since Sean Waltman
was in rehab Shane help get Terri’s daughter some things. Shane assured Marissa
that’s all it was. Shane flashed that McMahon assurance smile and knew thing
were going to be okay.
Wait a minute
There's something on my mind
I can't hold in any longer
Turn around
Don't just turn the radio down
I don't wanna hear "oh, uh, oh,
uh, oh, uh"
No, no, no (uh uh
uh uh uh
uh)
Wait a minute
There's something I wanna say
Tell me who joined us in the bed
last night
Don't look at me crazy, it did not
feel right
A little to drink, but had a lot to
say
Tell me who it was, tell me who it
was
Whoever she was, she was on your
mind
You stuttered a name that didn't
sound like mine
Your silence right now will
jeopardize you and I
Tell me who it was,
oh tell me who it was
Tell me who joined us in the bed
last night
Don't look at me crazy, it did not
feel right
A little to drink, but had a lot to
say
Tell me who it was, tell me who it
was
You left home early
And you came home late (again)
I know there's something goin' on
Tell me what it is
What does she have that I don't?
Don't try to even lie
I just wanna know the truth
Last night while you were in my bed
You brought Cathy,
Tell me
Tell me who joined us in the bed
last night
Don't look at me crazy, it did not
feel right
A little to drink, but had a lot to
say
Tell me who it was, tell me who it
was
(I'll tell ya
how I knew) I could feel it in your touch
Ain't lovin' good enough, no (Baby who's foolin'
who?)
You come home tired all the time
And you don't let me get mine, no
(Now before I say we're through)
She played you for a fool
She can't love you like I do
You can say what you want to
But last night you brought someone
home with you
Tell me
Tell me who joined us in the bed
last night
Don't look at me crazy, it did not
feel right
A little to drink, but had a lot to
say
Tell me who it was, tell me who it
was
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
To mean everything
Parts/Chapters:
4/7
Author:
Genta
Email: gentah@yahoo.com
Song: If
you don’t want to love me by Tamar
Ratings: PG-13
Contents/Warnings:
nothing to bad
Characters:
Terri Poch, Shane McMahon
Disclaimers:
I own only the story. Character names are more in likely trademarked to WWE.
Personal names belong to the people. Song is by Tamar and lyrics are at the
end.
Distributions:
just ask…
Spoilers:
none
Summary:
Terri finally has the nerve…
Terri was
not surprised at the Wrestlemania tickets that arrived for her family. Vince
was reaching out to her for some reason. Terri guessed that he was trying to
make it seem like the WWE was still a tight knit family. She smiled at Shalon.
She was a brilliant eight year old. She was making it. Shane was no longer a
part of her life. She turned to check on
Terri moved
to start packing clothes for the weekend. Shalon needed to be rewarded for
doing very well in school. A thought to call Shane crossed her mind but she
quickly dismissed the idea. Why did she always have to make the steps to
reunite with Shane? Terri sighed and walked to check on Shalon. She was looking
at WWE unscripted. She had paused on the picture of Shane, Vince and Declan. Terri
sat on the bed behind Shalon. Shalon had only heard about his other family. She
was looking at her grandfather and brother. Shalon closed the book. She looked
up at her mother. Shalon missed her dad but he had a legal family. She was just
a Poch. Based on her research, that was good enough for her.
**** At Wrestlemania Fan Axcess****
Terri was
exhausted.
Then she
noticed him and he noticed her. Shalon was in line to meet the last person,
Victoria.
Terri
glanced at her watch, while contemplating an excuse to leave. Shalon was
already packing up their stuff. Shane tried to ignore the awkwardness. Terri
needed to go and get ready. She was meeting Glen for dinner. Shane offered to
buy them breakfast. Terri stated that she would call him. Shalon normally did
not help with Kris but she did not want to be around Shane, the man formally
known as her daddy.
Terri
toweled off Kris as she heard Shalon in the tub. The knock at the door startled
her because no one knew she was there. She looked though the peephole and
sighed. She opened the door and invited Shane inside. Shane sat down and smiled
as he heard Shalon in the tub. Terri placed Kris on the bed and began to dress
him. She had rehearsed it many times in her head and she would not chicken out
now.
“Shane just
to clear the air, yes he is your son. But that does not entitle you to
anything. So I’m not sure why you are here because it is not out of love
because the last time I checked you are still with Marissa. I let you have such
a big chunk of my life and for what? You gave me two beautiful children but
that’s it. You’ve broken my heart and degraded me to less than a two bit tramp.
So that’s why you haven’t heard from me. That’s why you only hear my voice on
the voice mail.
“I slowly
realize that you can’t love me, not the way that is required. You can’t be a
here today gone tomorrow father. And you can not be in my bed and then in your
bed with Marissa. I don’t need your type of drama in my life. My children
deserve so much better. I’m not asking you for your love or your touch. I don’t
care if you’ve missed me or even want to kiss me. But I don’t want you to do
any of that.” Terri concluded as she walked to check on Shalon.
Shane sat
in the chair. His boyish charm was wearing away. The stress lines and bags were
becoming harder to miss. Terri was right. There was no way he could live a
double life. He had to give up one or the other. He eased out of the chair. He
watched his son as he kicked in the air. He didn’t even know his name. He
needed a picture for remembrance. He pulled out his cell phone and took a quick
picture. The little boy lay impervious by the flash. Shane left his other
family lamentably.
Terri
helped Shalon brush out her hair. Shane was not one to leave with out speaking
his mind. She knew it was simple to exclude himself from Shalon’s life. She was
simply a girl. Kris was another heir to the McMahon dynasty. He could finally
one up Vince. Terri shook the thought because Shane would have to go one down
at the same time. He had children out of wedlock. It was hard for Terri to let
him go but you can’t go on being the other woman.
Stopped by to see you, just the
other day
and I wanna say, that I finally realize
that without love don’t mean a thing
its so hard for me to see that you meant everything to me
but I guess I gotta move on
even though it hurts I gotta be strong
if you don’t wanna love me, don’t
love me, don’t wanna touch me, don’t touch me
cuz I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
if you don’t wanna miss me, don’t
miss me, don’t wanna kiss me, don’t kiss me
cause I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
Who would have known, all the nights
that you were hanging late
all alone I lay awake in my bed
though I never put food on your plate
how it feels to believe
that you never ever loved me
I got to move on, our love is gone
and this house is not a home
if you don’t wanna love me, don’t
love me, don’t wanna touch me, don’t touch me
cuz I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
if you don’t wanna miss me, don’t
miss me, don’t wanna kiss me, don’t kiss me
cause I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
You can be lonely, I don’t even care
But do you have to think that you'd
always be there
say you'd be right there, so if you...
if you don’t wanna love me, don’t
love me, don’t wanna touch me, don’t touch me
cuz I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
if you don’t wanna miss me, don’t
miss me, don’t wanna kiss me, don’t kiss me
cause I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
if you don’t wanna love me, don’t
love me, don’t wanna touch me, don’t touch me
cuz I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
if you don’t wanna miss me, don’t
miss me, don’t wanna kiss me, don’t kiss me
cause I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
if you don’t wanna love me, don’t
love me, don’t wanna touch me, don’t touch me
cuz I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
if you don’t wanna miss me, don’t
miss me, don’t wanna kiss me, don’t kiss me
cause I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t wanna do
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Does he love you?
Part#: 5 of
8
Author:
Genta ~ gentah@yahoo.com
Summary:
Marissa figures things out for herself
Rating:
PG-13
Distribution:
just ask…
Characters:
Shane and Marissa McMahon; Terri Poch
Disclaimer:
I own no one. This is a complete work of fiction. Vince McMahon owns
professional and characters own the personal. Terri Poch belongs to herself.
Song is by Reba Mcentire and Linda Davis
Author’s
note: I apologize that it has taken me so long to get this out. This part did
not want to cooperate. I wasn’t sure where to head but I think I got it
straight…
Marissa sat exhausted. She looked for
her cell phone everywhere but only found Shane’s. She needed to call Linda just
to check on Declan. He had a little bit of a fever. She only got the voice
mail. She was about to turn the phone off when she hit the photo album button.
She noticed the pictures of Declan. She smiled but it quickly faded as she saw
ones of a girl and another baby boy. She had seen these kids before but where?
Who are they and why are they in his phone?
Marissa immediately stood up as she
noticed the picture of Terri Poch. She was the woman he had been linked to
before her. She suddenly became angry. She entered his phone book. She was
astonished to see every way to contact her. Marissa placed the phone down. That’s
why she was at Wrestlemania. Marissa wondered if Vince knew but then again
Vince knew it all. Damn Shane for betraying her twice. She walked over to the
window and sighed. His cell phone rang and she walked over to see who it was.
It was Terri. Marissa immediately realized this woman had no shame.
Marissa retreated upstairs. She was
very upset and no one was there to console her. She walked back downstairs
about two hours later. She had taken something to relax. She had forgotten
about before until the door bell rang. She walked and opened the door. She was
surprised to see Terri looking at her. She could tell Terri was not expecting
to see her. Marissa politely explained that Shane was not home. Marissa was
incredulous when Terri said that was fine. She wanted to talk to her anyways.
Marissa invited her and her son inside.
Terri explained that Shane was
spending time with Shalon. Terri insisted that she was not there to throw
anything in her face nor was she meaning to be disrespectful. Marissa secluded
to her own world. He did have secret seeds. What his friends told her and what
she suspected was true. Marissa returned to the reality to hear that Shalon was
a product of their love. Terri stated she was not going to break up the home
that Marissa and Shane had created. Shane was not meant to love Terri. Marissa
just nodded and watched as Terri picked up her son and moved to leave. Marissa
had a question weighing on her mind. “Do you think he loved you?”
Terri laughed, “I am not sure how
to answer that, because I rarely see him. He gave his name to you. I’ve never
understood why he kept coming back. He says there’s a comfort in my arms. He
believed in me to be a financial backer for my yoga studio. Yes, I think he
loves me just not the way he’s constrained to love you.” Terri concluded as she
moved to leave. “Oh, I am not ashamed because unlike you, I can only gain and
not lose.”
Marissa sat there and thought. He’s
special trips had him smiling when he left. She couldn’t help but wonder if he
had been seeing her the whole time that ewer married. She moved to call Linda.
She needed time to think of her next move. Shane would act like nothing was
wrong and dismiss her as being paranoid. She had found out that Sean and Terri
did not have a child together. Terri and sean
had never been romantically linked except in story lines.
Marissa shook her head as Shane
entered with Declan. She looked confused as she sat up from the couch. She moved
the blanket and walked to Declan’s room. She realized
it had all been a dream. When Shane looked at her, she realized that he had
been deceiving her and not her deceiving herself. Like clock work Terri’s voice
returned to her head, “does he love you?”
I've known about you
For a while now
When he leaves me
He wears a smile now
As soon as he's away from me
In your arms is where he wants to be
But you're the one he rushes home to
You're the one he gave his name to
I never see his face
In the early morning light
You have his mornings, his daytime,
and sometimes i have his nights
But does he love you
Does he love you
Like he loves me
Like he loves me
Does he think of you
Does he think of you
When he's holding me
And does he whisper
Does he whisper
All his fantasies
Does he love you
Does he love you
Like he's been
loving me
But when he's with me
He says he needs me
And that he wants me
That he believes in me
And when I’m in his arms
Oh he swears there's no one else
Is he deceiving me
Or am I deceiving myself
Am I deceiving myself
But does he love you
Does he love you
Like he loves me
Like he loves me
Does he think of you
Does he think of you
When he's holding me
And does he whisper
Does he whisper
All his fantasies
Does he love you
Does he love you
Like he's been
loving me
I should not lose my temper
I should not be ashamed
Cause I have everything to lose
And I, I have nothing to gain
But does he love you
Does he love you
Like he loves me
Like he loves me
Does he think of you
Does he think of you
When he's holding me
And does he whisper
Does he whisper
All his fantasies
Does he love you
Does he love you
Like he's been
loving me
Oh, does he love you
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Where is your
heart?
Part#: 6 of 8
Author: Genta ~ gentah@yahoo.com
Rating: PG-13
Distribution: just ask and the
groups I post to
Characters: Shane and Marissa
McMahon
Disclaimer: I own no one. This is a
complete work of fiction. Vince McMahon owns professional and characters own
the personal. Song is by Kelly Clarkson…
Summary: Marissa asks Shane one
simple question
Marissa
thought how she could approach this situation. Shane would sweet talk her and
smooth things over like nothing were wrong. He used to make it feel like the
earth moved underneath her. He had stopped trying to make her happy. She used
to know that he was true to her and was always there to show that he cared for
her. She needed some assurance that she had his heart.
Shane felt
Marissa’s stares. He was being watched. Lately, Marissa had become greedy. She
wanted all of his time, attention and whatever else she could think to ask for.
He was starting to feel trapped. He had been thinking about Terri, Shalon and
Marissa
began expressing her thoughts. She told him that his love is so cold. He never
reaches out to her. She has to throw an anchor or shine a light to find his
hand. She looked down to hide the tears that were forming. She pleaded that
love is suppose to be effortless. Like petals falling from a flower, they were
supposed to be following a dream of love. Marissa paused as she heard him sigh.
So many things were left unsaid. Shane never replied, never disagreed, or
offered an opinion. He’s always there for her but she wanted to know that he
was hers.
I don't believe
In the smile that you leave
When you walk away
And say goodbye
Well I don't expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God's sake
Could you try?
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That's all I'm asking for
Oh, where is your heart?
I don't understand
Your love is so cold
It's always me that's reaching out
For your hand
And I've always dreamed
That love would be effortless
Like a petal fallin'
to the ground
A dreamer followin'
his dream
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
And that's all I'm asking for
Oh, where is your heart?
It seems so much is left unsaid
So much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
Oh, anytime you need
Baby, it's just you and me
Oh yeah
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That's all I'm asking for
Oh yeah
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
And that's all I'm asking for
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
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Could’ve been
Part#: 7 of
8
Author:
Genta ~ gentah@yahoo.com
Rating:
PG-13
Distribution:
just ask…
Characters:
Marissa McMahon
Disclaimer:
I own no one. This is a complete work of fiction. Vince McMahon owns
professional and characters own the personal. The song was written by Lois Blaisch and sung by Tiffany.
Summary: Shane
gave Marissa his answer and now she must deal with his choice
Marissa looked at her stuff and
frowned. She walked to Declan’s room one more time.
She did not want to leave him but she had no choice. Shane made his decision
and it excluded her all together. What made it worse was that Shane took Declan
with him. Marissa would miss his first birthday. She wanted to be the one who
took him to his first day of kindergarten. She wanted it all to be a dream.
Dreams are what made things like they are. She dreamed she would end up happy.
She would leave that small town she grew up on. She was leaving the one man she
truly loved and her first born son.
She walked over to pick up the
pictures that Shane was allowing her to take. Marissa noticed the roses he had
brought her were about to die. She thought about what should have been and the
tears slowly began to fall. Marissa thought back to all the sweet would that
Shane had ever said to her and realized that they were sweet nothings. He was
using her to pass time. He was always on her mind. She took the wedding picture
down and studied it. That day was perfect. It was their day. Shane swore they
would dance to their song forever. Marissa wiped her eyes. Forever ended today.
Marissa packed her books and other
personal items. She thought her life was beautiful. She thought her marriage
was so right. Shane vowed to be her lover every day for the rest of her life.
She sealed the last box and reached for a tissue. She wiped her face. Her
memories would be all she had to keep her warm. She wasn’t surprised when he
stated that he was going to place the house for sale. Memories, real or not,
were everywhere. The memories of parties, celebrations, anniversaries, and
their love still lingered in the air. She tried to deny it but his scent would
stay with her everywhere.
Marissa had hopes that she and
Shane would be trying for another child. She had hoped for so many things but
her hopes had dropped, which for Marissa was nothing new. By her account they
should have had four kids. She had two miscarriages and two that turned out to
be tumors. She tried to console herself as the movers came in. They did not
even acknowledge her. Shane probably set it up this way. She did not realize it
bet they had different box. He took some of the furniture and laughed when he
wrote out her settlement check. McMahons can make the world move according to
their needs and likes. Marissa placed her wedding rings on the table. She would
not exchange her time with Shane for anything. She guess it was true what could
have been is better than what could be at all. She pulled on her coat and
walked to her car. She drove to the hotel and held onto her could’ve been.
The flowers you gave me
Are just about to die
When i
think about
What could've been
It makes me want to cry
The sweet words you whispered
Didn't mean a thing
I guess our song is over
As we begin to sing
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been my lover
Every day of my life
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
I'll never hold what could've been
On a cold and lonely night
The members of our lovin'
Still linger in the air
Like the faded scent of your roses
They stay with me everywhere
Every time i
get my hopes up
They always seem to fall
Still what could've been is better
than
What could never be at all
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been my lover
Every day of my life
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
I'll never hold what could've been
On a cold and lonely night
How could i
hold what could've been
On a cold and lonely night?
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Perfect
Parts: 8 of 8
Author: Genta ~ gentah@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: I own no one. Shane and
any one else belongs to WWE. Terri Poch owns herself. Simple Plan sings Perfect… lyrics are enclosed
at the end
Distribution: My groups I post to,
anywhere else just ask
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Shane deals with the
consequences of his choices
Characters/Pairing: Shane McMahon,
Terri Poch
Spoilers: none
Author Notes: I’m not sure if this
is it. But this is then end for now. I hope this helps explains some things
Shane sat and looked over items to
go up on the website. He noticed Shalon as worked on some school work. Terri
had Declan and
Shane smiled as Terri entered the
room. Declan was walking and giggled as he made his way to his daddy. Shane looked at Terri and blew her a kiss.
Terri blew one back as she handed Shalon a bag of food. Shane noticed Declan
yawn and snuggle next to him. Terri stated they ate before they came. Shane
smiled as Terri slid him a Cesar salad. Terri shook a bottle for
Vince power walked to Shane’s
makeshift office. He could not believe what Stephanie had informed him. He took
steps to prevent the scenario from happening. Terri was supposed to disappear.
Shane and Marissa were supposed to be happily ever after. He had talked with
Linda and that made him felt worse. He wanted his children in perfect
relationships with perfect people. Terri was not perfect for Shane.
Vince turned the corner and heard
them talking. Vince popped his head in and asked for Shane to walk with him.
Shane nodded okay and placed Declan in the stroller. Shane kissed his family
and left. Shane knew this talk was coming. Vince did not raise him to divorce
his wife. Vince would have never allowed out of wedlock children to happen.
”Shane, you’re wasting you time
trying to establish a relationship with Terri. You had a good thing with
Marissa. Now you are making a whore into a housewife. You should have taken
those children and let her wherever she was.” Vince said as Shane stopped.
“Thanks, Dad! I knew you would have
my back on this one. Do you know it hurts when you disapprove of everything I
do? I thought long and hard about what I wanted and needed. Terri is just that.
I tried to make you proud but I realized that was impossible. I realized that I’m
not good enough and I’m not going to pretend I’m alright. I have made my choice
and you can’t change the way I am.
“You know I try not to think of the
pain I feel knowing you disapprove. I used to hold onto the memories and think
of you as my hero. I just wanted to make you proud. I’m not going to be the
good enough for you. I don’t want to have another fight. Let’s just agree that
nothing is all right.” Shane said as he turned to go in the opposite direction.
Vince sighed and looked upwards. “Shane,
you and I both know nothing is going to change despite what either of us might
say. There’s nothing that is going to make this right. But I believe we can
work through this. I don’t want to loose you. I know you feel like I don’t
listen or understand. Don’t stop trying because I am not perfect…
Hey Dad look
at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect