The Loneliness

Rating: PG-13

Characters: Charlie Haas, Jalena Snider

Disclaimer: I own Jalena Snider. Vince owns the characters’ names. People own themselves. Babyface sings the song and the lyrics are at the end.

Distribution: Just ask and you shall receive

Summary: Charlie looks at the demise of his relationship

The number stared back at him. It had been two weeks since he last spoke to Jalena. Jalena was unhappy with him being away. She could tell that he was more interested in being on the road. He sighed… he was sort of getting along without her. He was barely doing that. It was uneasy knowing that he would return home to a house without her. He missed being able to hear her voice. His days don’t really exist. His nights after the show were so lonely. He was not sure what he would say to her. He wasn’t good. Although he was around friends, he felt out of place. He hardly kept track of time. He hoped this wasn’t the on set of losing one’s mind.

He placed the phone on the nightstand. He moved to take in some fresh air. It was hard to breathe when he started to missing her. He reached in his wallet and looked at her pictures. He missed her face. He missed her chocolate eyes, her dimples, and her smile. He longed to feel his lips against hers. She had a kiss that could make a rainy day full of sunshine. Her kiss immediately could turn a flicker into a flame. He would love to have an argument just so she would at least be speaking to him. He looked up at the stars and realized normally she would be standing right beside him pointing out constellations. Charlie felt like he was slowly dying without her. He just didn’t feel the same without her. He wondered if she felt the same. Not wanting to live without him in her life.

Charlie sucked it up and walked back in. they were always too stubborn to admit anything. He grabbed his cell. He punched in her speed dial #. It rang twice before the voice mail. He took a breath as he heard her message. She had not changed her message. “I love you Charlie Always!” He exhaled and after the beep he said simply…

So tell me how you feel… I’m lonely. I’m wondering if you’re lonely too. Do you still think of me? I think of you…Do you dream of me at night? I dream of you all the time. I’m going to tell you how it feels. It’s like everyday I die. I wish I was dreaming but it’s real. When I open my eyes and don't see your pretty face. This may be premature but I think that I will never love anyone else again… I love you always too! Charlie

I’m sitting here

Thinking bout

How I'm gonna do without

You around in my life and how am I

I gon' get by

I ain't got no days

Just lonely nights

You want the truth

Well girl I’m not alright

Feel out of place and out of time

I think I’m gonna lose my mind

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)

Are you for real (so lonely)

Do you still think of me (I think of you)

Baby still (are you lonely)

Do you dream of me at night (like I dream of you all the time)

So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday I die)

Wish I was dreaming but its real (when I open up my eyes)

Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)

I think that I will never love again

I miss your face

I miss your kiss

I even miss the arguments

That we would have from time to time

I miss you standing by my side

I'm dying here its clear to see

There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me

Don't wanna live, I wanna die

If I cant have you in my life

So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)

Are you for real (so lonely)

Do you still think of me (I think of you)

Baby still (are you lonely)

Do you dream of me at night (like I dream of you all the time, so lonely)

Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday I die)

Wish I was dreaming but its real (when I open up my eyes)

Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)

I think that I will never love again

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