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Pairing: Buffy/?

Rating: G

Disclaimer: Buffy belongs to Joss and WWE belongs to Vince

Summary: After the death of her brother Buffy must visit the one place she swore she would never go back too.

 

 

Part 1
Notes: Character Death

Notes: Set just after Smashed on Buffy and Present day for WWE

 

“Is there anything else I can get you Miss?”

 

Buffy turned to the secretary and gave a shake of the head and went back to staring at the wall. She was so tired. She hadn’t slept since she had got the news last night and she was now sat in a tiny room waiting to see Vince McMahon.

 

The door opened and an older man who she knew as Vince walked out.

 

“Come in Buffy” he ushered her into the room and closed the door behind him.

 

“I’m so sorry honey” he gathered her to him. Buffy let him hold her and then let go so she could take a seat.

 

He realized something was up with her but just put it down to the events of the last 24 hours.

 

“Anyway” he said sitting in his chair “The body is being brought back tonight. Is there anything I can help you with”.

 

“No a friend arranged things for me so it’s all sorted”

 

“Is she here” she asked

 

“I asked him to take time off but he said no” Vince answered. “Do you want to see him

 

Buffy Nodded

 

He picked up the phone “I’ll get somebody to take you”

 

“No” she said standing up. “I’ll find her” and she walked out the door.

 

She deliberately kept her head down so the people she did know from the last time she was here wouldn’t recognize her.

 

When she got to the dressing room she stopped outside. She took a deep breath and walked inside.

 

She recognized some of them but other’s she wasn’t sure of. She saw Kurt, Taker, Kane, Hunter and of course John. One by one they all came over to offer her their condolences. She didn’t want the sympathy but she hadn’t the strength or energy or the strength to stop them

 

“Where?”

 

“Over there” Kurt nodded

 

She offered him a small smile and made her way over to the only other person who was feeling the same pain that she was.

 

“Lit” she looked down at the redhead who was huddled into the corner.

 

“Buffy” she looked up through the tears and threw herself into the small Blonde’s arms.

 

“He’s gone” she kept saying over and over again.

 

Chris Masters came into the room and saw the two women hugging.

 

“Who’s that with Lita?” he asked no one in particular.

 

“Edge’s sister Buffy” Kane answered.

 

After literally crying herself to sleep Kurt and John offered to help Buffy get Lita back to the hotel. Kurt drove them as even though she was sleeping she still wouldn’t let go of the last part of her dead boyfriend.

 

When they got to the hotel they helped her into the room and stayed while Buffy got her undressed and into bed.

 

“Is she okay?” he handed Buffy a cup of coffee as she shut the door behind her.

 

Buffy shrugged and sat on the sofa behind John.

 

“There’s something you don’t know babygirl” John put his arm around her.

 

“They had just got married. They were coming back from Vegas when the crash happened”

 

“Poor girl no wonder she’s so upset” Buffy felt the tears coming but she refused to shed them.

 

“Christian should be here by tonight” Kurt took the seat opposite.

 

“Thanks” she took a sip of the coffee then grimaced. It didn’t have enough sugar. She went into the sidebar and added another spoonful.

 

While she done this both men took the opportunity to look at her and didn’t like what they saw.

 

“She’s far too thin” John thought. Buffy had always been skinny but now she was nothing more than bones. He wondered if it had something to do with what happened during the summer.

 

It was still niggling him. He and Buffy were best friends. Had been since the day they met three years ago but every time he tried to make contact with her one of the others made excuses why she couldn’t come to the phone.

 

Kurt was worried for another reason altogether. What she didn’t know was Christian was bringing him with him. It had been over four years since she saw him but Kurt realized that as soon as they met again the wounds would be re-opened.

 

She felt them both staring at her. She was so involved with trying to show she was okay she didn’t notice that she was burning her hand on the stove. It wasn’t until she smelt burning flesh that she realized she had put her hand on the hob.

 

Looking at the wound she sighed. Yet another thing she couldn’t feel. Spike had been right. She had come back wrong. That was the only explanation for her not feeling this. Not feeling anything over Edge and why she screwed Spike.

 

“You okay..Oh what happened?” Kurt had come in to see what was taking her so long and seen the burn on her hand. “Honestly it’s fine” she tried to smile.

 

The doorbell rang

 

“I’ll get it” John shouted

 

She heard her brother’s voice as well as somebody else’s.

 

“Princess” Christian lunged for her as soon as he saw her in the kitchen. He eyes were already blood shot and seeing his baby sister made fresh tears fall.

 

Even know with his arms around her she still didn’t feel anything.

 

“Buffy”

 

She opened her eyes and saw him standing there.

 

“Raven” she nodded at him.

 

Part 2

Summary: What will it take to make Buffy feel something

 

It was as if time stood still. Here she was with her grieving brother wrapped around her and the man who broke her heart staring at her.

 

She had been planning for this day for the last few years and it was not going according to plan. She had thought at the least there would be tears. But no she was just standing there wishing Christian would get off of her.

 

He did eventually let go and moved over to Kurt and John so they could offer their condolences.

 

“How are you Buf?” he was still looking at her.

 

“Peachy hell you would think someone had died the way people were acting” she laughed.

 

Everyone in the room turned and stared at her

 

“Tough room” she said to herself.

 

“I can’t stand this” she stormed out the flat.

 

“Give her time?” Lita had finally woken up and was standing beside the door

 

“That girl has changed” John shook his head realizing she wasn’t the same Buffy he knew.

 

“You have to give her time the girl did die John” she said sitting at the table.

 

“WHAT” Christian screamed.

 

“You didn’t know” everybody shook their heads.

 

“You better sit down” she said.

 

“I don’t think I’m gonna like this” Christian looked at Kurt as they four men made their way over to the table.

 

When they had all got comfy Lita began

 

“Remember she told you about Glory” she looked around the table.

 

“Who’s Glory?” Raven quizzed the redhead.

 

“A hell god” she answered before continuing “Turns out she had to kill Dawn to get back to her world”

 

“And Dawnie was made from Buffy” Kurt said

 

Lita nodded “And Buffy had been told from someone that death was her gift so realizing…

 

“She sacrificed herself” John finished the story.

 

“So when she died Dawn ceased to exist” Lita said.

 

“How long was she gone for?” Christian asked.

 

“Just over two months nobody could say anything otherwise the vamps would know about her”

 

“How did you know?”

 

“I went with Edge to visit her after the incident with Matt” she looked as if she was about to burst into tears again.

 

“He knew she would be the only one not to judge him. We were there when she came back” she couldn’t look any of them in the eye.

 

“Came back?” Raven asked.

 

Willow resurrected her and she had to dig her way out of her own grave. She came home and her fingers and knuckled were skint

 

She finally noticed who was in the room

 

“What are you doing here?” She looked at Raven.

 

“He gave me a lift Lita don’t start” Christian warned.

 

“Decided to see if you could hurt her anymore did you?” she yelled at him.

 

“I don’t need this” Raven stood up and grabbed his jacket.

 

“That’s right run away that’s what you do best coward” she screamed at him as he slammed the door behind him.

 

 

 

“Son of a bitch” Buffy swore to herself as she downed her fifteenth shot. The barman had tried to stop her after five but she threatened to relieve him of his valuables if he tried.

 

“Coming back as if nothing had happened”

 

“You look as if you need a friend”

 

She looked up and saw an older man with long Blonde hair standing beside the table

 

“Will you drink with me?” she smiled at him

 

“Sure”

 

“Then you can be my friend” She poured him a shot as he sat down.

 

“So why’s a pretty girl like you upset?” he took the glass she offered and downed it in one.

 

“My brother died last night” she shrugged drinking hers and pouring them another.

 

“But that’s not the problem” she shook her head. “My ex came back to town tonight” she smiled sadly.

 

“Seems like you need something to take your mind off it all” he accepted the next glass.

 

“You know you might be right” she grinned before ordering another bottle.

 

 

 

They had to get a doctor to sedate Lita. When she finally succumbed to the sedative, John, Christian and Kurt settled down for the night. They had a few beers to celebrate Edge’s memory.

 

“So what’s the deal with Buffy and Raven?” John asked.

 

The other two men flinched then looked at each other.

 

“Well you can guess they used to date right?” Kurt looked at him and was answered with a nod.

 

“Well he was her first serious boyfriend. They were together for a few years but he had a few problems”

 

“The drugs” John nodded he had read enough about him.

 

“Well one day it all got too much and Buffy asked him to choose and it wasn’t her he picked” Christian continued.

 

“He promised to give it up for her but that bitch Ivory gave him tablets knowing he would take them”

 

“And he did” John guessed

 

“Yep just as Buffy walked in. She went mad and the next day he’d left her a letter saying he was no good for her and he joined TNA”

 

“Doesn’t seem as if she’s bothered though” Christian looked at the others.

 

“Yep there’s definitely something wrong with her” Kurt agreed.

 

 

NEXT MORNING

 

“Oh my head” Buffy woke up when the glare of the sun hit her in the eyes.

 

She tried to move but the arm around her side stopped her from moving.

 

She turned and saw the guy from last night lying beside. What had she done hell she didn’t even know his name. It reminded her of Spike allover again.

 

She slipped out of bed and got dressed. She thought she was home free when she heard the voice from the bed just as she opened the room door.

 

“Not going without saying goodbye are you sweetheart?”

 

 

 

Part 3

 

SUMMARY: Will Buffy finally come to terms with her loss?

 

NOTES: Set right after Chapter 2

 

Buffy was rooted to the spot like a deer caught in the headlights

 

“I’m only kidding” he grinned as he sat up.

 

“I guess this was your first time doing this huh”

 

She nodded

 

“Come sit down” he patted the bed and she done as she was told

 

“Did you enjoy yourself

 

“Yes” she smiled

 

“So why be embarrassed”

 

“I guess it’s just so soon after my brother that I..”

 

“From what you said last night he sounds like the kind of guy that lived life to the max”

Buffy had to agree to that

 

“What time is it” he looked for his pants

 

“5.30” she answered

 

“Well I’m going back to bed for a while. Care to join me?”

 

“Like you say life live to the max” she grinned as she got undressed

 

 

 

She finally made it back to the apartment by noon.

 

“Where the hell were you?” Christian was sitting in the chair.

 

It was obvious he hadn’t slept all night

 

“Out now can I get a shower” she grumbled

 

“I know what you did last summer” he whispered stopping her in her tracks

 

“What how what?”

 

“Lita told us just before she nearly killed Raven” he tried to smile

 

“Is she okay” Buffy sat down

 

“There you go again changing the subject” he shook his head

 

“You have to talk about it”

 

“I really don’t” she flipped him off

 

 

Just as the toilet door shut the front door opened and Raven walked in

 

“Hey man” Christian sighed

 

“What happened?”

 

“She just came back before you and wouldn’t say where she had been” he accepted the bottle Raven had given him

 

“There’s something she isn’t telling us” Raven agreed

 

“Dude you look shattered go and get some rest before tonight”

 

 

 

LATER THAT NIGHT

 

“And where do you think you are going dressed like that lady?” Christian growled when he saw how short Buffy’s dress was

 

“I think I’m going out” she was searching for her lipstick

 

“What oh my” Kurt’s eyes nearly popped out

 

“Baby girl you can’t wear that to the taping” John came into the room followed by Raven

 

“Lucky I’m not going then isn’t it” she shrugged

 

“You have to Edge was your brother” Kurt said

 

She lunged at him and pinned him to the wall

 

“Don’t ever talk to me like that again or I’ll forget that you’re a human understand”

 

“Buffy let him go” Raven tried to move her but she kicked him so hard she sent him through the table

 

“Sweetheart let him go” she turned to see Lita standing in the room

 

Letting him drop she rushed over to the other woman

 

“Why aren’t you coming?” the redhead asked her “And I want the truth”

 

“Fine because they are all hypocrites” she answered

 

“Up until a few days ago he was nothing more than a traitor who stole his best friend’s girl and now he’s what misunderstood. Hell even Hardy had the cheek to look upset the other night”

 

“Then don’t go then” Lita looked at the younger woman

 

“You’re right Buffy and if I had the choice I wouldn’t go either”

 

“I’ll come if you want me to Lit” she pulled the redhead into a hug

 

“No you go honestly have a good time. Edge would want it”

 

 

She waited until the Slayer had left

 

“She is cracking up”

 

“She needs to talk to somebody” Kurt agreed

 

I’l

 

“Not you Christian” Lita stopped him “Who is the only person apart from Edge she was ever honest with”

 

They all looked at Raven

 

“Fine I’ll do it tomorrow but after the funeral”

 

 

 

 

 Buffy went to a park she used to go to when she was a kid with Edge.

 

Since it was deserted she took a seat on the swing

 

She sensed someone behind her and they started pushing her

 

“Look I’m not in the mood okay”

 

You were always in a mood Bruiser”

 

She jumped off and turned to see her big brother standing there

 

Your dead”

 

“Right”

 

“You died”

 

“Yep”

“Wanna explain why you’re talking to me”

 

“Mom sent me”

 

He sat on the swing she had just left

 

“You have to live Buffy or you were as well staying dead princess” he looked over at her

 

“Why I don’t have anybody any more”

 

“You have Lita and the Sunnydale crowd”

 

“There not you, Dawn or Mom” she felt the tears coming

 

“You have to let go Buffy especially with Mom”

 

He stood up and walked over to her

 

“She isn’t coming back sweet heart none of us are”

 

He stopped then started again

 

“Remember when you went into the coma when Dawnie was kidnapped by Glory?”

 

She nodded

 

“It was guilt that caused it because you thought it was you fault and the same thing is happening again”

 

“I could have though”

 

“Mom died from natural causes, Dawn should never have existed and the smash was my fault for not concentrating?”

 

“Doesn’t matter though your back” she smiled

 

“You aren’t getting it Buffy” he sighed

 

“I would give up everything I had to hold you one more time little one” tears started falling from his own eyes

 

“But I can’t. Not anymore…

 

“You were heaven”

 

She nodded

 

“Until you let us go none of us can be there”

 

He disappeared

 

“Edge” she screamed until she literally lost her voice

 

 

 

After what felt like a lifetime she finally moved and went to the bar that she was at last time and her friend was there again

 

“Another drink?” he smiled when he saw her

 

“Just a soda” she sat beside him 

 

“You know my excuse for being here what about you?”

 

He smiled

 

“Hurt my leg and I work in the sports industry so…

 

 

 

At that same moment Raven walked in and spotted the pair right away and made straight for the table

 

“What the hell do you think your playing at?” he growled at him as he pulled Buffy up.

 

“Well if it isn’t the almighty Raven” he sat back in his seat

 

“You two know each other” she looked between them

 

“Unfortunately” Raven bore a hole in him

 

“Well more than us babe?” he winked at Buffy

 

“Meaning” then realization dawned “You were with him last night Buffy?’

 

“Buffy?” the guy at the table laughed

 

“You sound like a cheerleader”

 

“Got flung out of the squad” she admitted

 

Your telling me you slept with him and you didn’t know his name

 

“Wait a minute your not Buffy Summers are you Edge’s sister?”

 

She nodded

 

“Oh he was your brother” he looked down

 

“Did you know him?”

 

“Yeah I wrestled with him a few times”

 

“I never saw you when I was there” she admitted

 

“He was on injury leave” Raven piped in

 

“So what is your name?”

 

“Well to my fans I am the Heartbreak Kid or you can just call me Shawn Michaels” he smiled at her.

 

 

Part 4

SUMMARY: How will Buffy finally open up to?

 

WARNING: Character Death

 

"How is she?" Vince walked up behind Christian

 

They had just attended Edge's funeral and everyone was concerned over his sister.

 

Ever since she returned to the locker room she had shown little if no emotion. Hell the girl had died and she refused to even talk about it.

 

She was currently bent over Edge's grave laying some flowers as if it was the resting-place of a stranger

 

"It as if the lights are on but there's nobody home" he whispered knowing she would be able to hear him

 

"She seems to think he's just away on holiday"

 

"Well we are here for you no matter what" Vince offered him hand

 

"Thanks Vince" he shook the older man's hand

 

 

 

Cena Raven and Kurt had been watching from a distance

 

"You need to do something about her Raven" Kurt was worried

 

"She looks as if she's about to break I've never seen her like that"

 

"What the hell does he want?" Raven growled when he saw Shawn walk over to her

 

 

 

"You want to talk about it?"

 

She looked up to see Shawn staring back down at her

 

"No thanks" she shook her head

 

"If your sure" he put a hand on her shoulder showing his support

 

"She said she was fine" a voice growled from behind him

 

 

Raven pulled Buffy up

 

"We need to talk Buf"

 

She was about to refuse

 

"Fine I'll talk you listen either way this is happening" and he dragged her to his car

 

 

"Why are we here?" she noticed he's stopped outside the park she'd seen Edge at a few nights before

 

"Because this has to end now Buffy" he stopped the engine and stared at her

 

"There's nothing to talk about" she shrugged and got out the car

 

"Women" he snarled and got out and followed her

 

"Buffy"

 

She shrugged him off

 

"Fine" he growled and swirled her to face him

 

His fist shot out and connected with her jaw

 

"You hit me" she yelled

 

"Just making sure you're real" he backed away

 

 

 

 

He gave in

 

"Fine you want to be dead go ahead and kill yourself. It seems to be the only time you've ever been happy Little One"

 

"I was in heaven"

 

He stopped in his tracks

 

"I was in heaven with Mom and Dawn and they pulled me out"

 

"Your right I do want to die so I'll get to see my family again"

 

"You have family here"

 

"No I don't" she shook her head violently

 

"I don't have no one"

 

"I want to cry but I can't"

 

"Why not" he whispered

 

"Because If I do it will mean I'm admitting they're gone"

 

"They are gone Buffy"

 

"You know I saw Edge here the other night" she smiled up at him

 

"Really?"

 

He said he couldn't go to heaven until I let go and admit it"

 

"Admit what?"

 

"My brother's dead" she collapsed

 

"He's really gone and I'll never see him again"

 

"Baby" he knelt down and pulled her to him

 

"Everybody leaves me" she started shaking

 

 

"I had to Buffy" he knew what she met

 

"I was wrong for you Princess I still am"

 

"You were the only one who understood apart from him" she kept staring over at the swing

 

"What did he say the other night?'

 

"I needed to live"

 

"Maybe you should listen" he stroked her back

 

"You have a good life Buffy. You got given another chance"

 

 

She pushed him off her and stood up

 

"Your not coming back are you?'

 

"I'm sorry"

 

"Then it doesn't matter" she dried her eyes

 

"Look I need some time to myself okay" she looked at him

 

"Buffy....

 

She had already walked away

 

 

 

 

"Nothing's gonna stop you is it?"

 

She turned and saw Edge behind her

 

"I can't do this not anymore with everything I've lost"

 

"Then I guess I'll see you soon then Buffy"

 

 

 

 

 

"Can I speak to Christian Summers Please?'

 

The Police Officer asked

 

"Yeah come in" John answered the door

 

"Can I help you?" the Blonde asked

 

"Maybe we should talk in private" the Officer spoke

 

"No we're all family"

 

He looked around at Lita, Raven, Kurt and John

 

"Are you the brother of Buffy Anne Summers?"

 

"Yeah why?"

 

"I'm sorry to have to inform you of this but she was found dead this afternoon"

 

"No no no " Lita screamed as Christian ran over to grab her

 

"What happened?" John couldn't look anyone in the eye

 

"It seems as If she jumped off a viaduct in the outskirts of town. She had been lying for quite a while"

 

"What killed her?" Kurt had to ask

 

"From the first examination it looks as if her skull smashed on impact"

 

"So she had no chance"

 

"No she would have died as soon as she hit the ground"

 

He picked something out of his pocket

 

"This was found on her body"

 

He handed Christian a envelope

 

""I'm sorry for your loss"

 

He let himself out

 

Christian handed it to John

 

He ripped it open and took out the letter

 

 

 

I know your wondering why I did it and to be truthful I couldn't give you a real answer.

I've fought for so long and when I died last summer I thought I'd finally got my reward and then well you know what happened

All I know is that it hurts more than it should. I tried I promise you I did but I guess in the end I've proved that I'm not the strong one

 

John-

Although we didn't know each other as long as the others. We were tight weren't we?

You had my back and no matter where I end up I promise you I will always have yours

 

Kurt

You were the dad I never had. Any problems I had when I came to you they got fixed.

It's just a shame this one was too big to even try to. You have to look after the other's for me now that I'm gone.

I gonna miss you and it's true. It's damn true

 

Lits

My big sister. I promise I'll keep Edge out of trouble or is it the other way around. No matter what anybody you made him happy never forget it

 

Raven

I know what your thinking and don't. I still would have done it even if you had said yes it would just be later rather than sooner. I guess I just needed to lesson the pain

You were the one my soul. Don't ever think your were bad for me if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have made it as long as I did.

No matter where I end up I will always love you

 

Christian

I'm sorry for leaving you big brother. You always used to say wherever Edge went I would and I guess you were proved right huh

Do just one thing for me win the belt-show everyone you can do it. Prove what I've known all along

 

And lastly I don't want any of you being upset. Remember I finally got my peace now you need to get yours

 

Love Always Buffy

 

 

 

 

 

A FEW MONTHS LATER

 

"Hey Buff" Christian sat down at her grave

 

"How you doing sweetheart. You still annoying Edge and Mom like you used too"

 

He looked down

 

"I still miss you Angel you know that right"

 

"No matter what happens you will always be remembered I will make sure of it"

 

"Also your baby niece will get your name" he smiled "Yeah Lit's is pregnant she's not got long to go and she's going to call her Buffy

 

 

He looked down at the item was holding

 

"I done it Buf" he whispered his voice breaking

 

"I proved them all wrong and I got it"

 

He held the TNA Heavyweight belt up

 

"You know he still blames himself about you. He gave up wrestling and moved to Sunnydale to help the others

 

"Well I have to go sweetheart" he stood up

 

"Just remember I love you Buffy wherever you are Angel"

 

 

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