Fallen

The Series

 

Title: Everybody's Fool

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Everybody's Fool' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.'

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

AN: Written during the Canadian one dollar bet between Jericho and Christian. All parts were inspired by the music of ’Evanescence’. Song lyrics to ‘Everybody’s Fool’ follow at the end of part 1.

 

'Denotes thoughts'

 

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Part 1 of 11

 

**

 

It had been a ruse.

 

A joke.

 

A stupid bloody game.

 

And she had been the pawn.

 

The unsuspecting fool who had wanted to believe that he actually respected her not only as a woman, but as a wrestler, that's all she really wanted, all she's strived for since she started training. She wanted to be so much more than just another pair of breasts strutting around the ring, showing off her wares to all the world.

 

And she really thought she had passed that, especially when *he* had started paying attention to her. If he'd been anyone else she would have ignored his attentions, spurned them for the lies she knew they were. But did she? No. Why? Because she had wanted this time to be different. Had wanted *him* to be different.

 

Yet, as she looked at his cocky, self assured self standing in the middle of the ring, she couldn't help but wonder how the hell she could have been so wrong. Guess that's what love does to you.

 

Yep. She'd be the first to admit that her love for him had clouded her judgement, shielding his true intention's from her, even as other's had tried to warn her.

 

'I've known him a long time,’ One had said. 'He doesn't do anything without an ulterior motive.'

 

'Deceit is his best friend.' Another had added.

 

'He care's about no one but himself.'

 

'He's using you.'

 

'Don't trust him.'

 

And the list had go on and on. Oh yes, she had heard them all. Taken them all on board and just as easily brushed them aside.

 

'It may have been like that before,' she had told herself. 'But this time it would be different.' She shook her head trying to focus as she started down the ramp.

 

He didn't know she knew. Didn't know she'd been standing just outside of his locker room door, didn't know that she had heard every single word of his conversation with Eric Bischoff.

 

How wrong she'd been back then. But you can't go through life without making a few mistakes here and there. And now, that's just what Chris Jericho was to her - A mistake.

 

**

 

'Oh, yeah, I got her eating out of my hand. No woman can resist this sexy beast.' He grinned as he watched her approach.

 

It had been so easy, a few well placed words, a few smile's here and there and who would have guessed that that jackass Austin *kind of* saving Stacy from that chair shot would have worked in so well with his plan's.

 

Use, Abuse and Defuse. Three little words that he had learned to live by. Three little word's that had helped him get to where he was now, granted where he had originally planned on going and where he had actually ended up were at two different ends of the scale. His shoulders lifted in a devil may care shrug. But what the hey, everyone knows it's more fun being a heel.

 

'Just reel her in and knock her down.' Those had been Eric's words exactly. It was no secret why Eric Bischoff, Co-GM of RAW hated Trish Stratus. Everyone remembered how he'd tried to blackmail the little blonde into his bed. Hell, back then, Eric had tried to get anything with breasts and a pulse into his bed, but none of the divas had humiliated him as much as Trish Stratus had. And having the little blonde around, seeing her every single working day was a constant reminder of that humiliation.

 

A smile lit his eyes at the path his thoughts were taking. He was Eric's right hand man, leader of the 'Get Rid of Austin Committee.' The King of Bling Bling. The true sexy beast of the WWE. And tonight he had a job to do.

 

For the past three week's he'd been stringing Trish along, playing the 'I respect you' routine till he had it down to a science. Now it was time to pull the plug and allow Eric the last laugh.

 

He ran his hands down the front of his pants as she slipped between the ropes, coming to a stop a few step's away from him. The feel of vinyl against his hands doing little to ease his now sweaty palms, something he noticed happened a lot when she was around.

 

When exactly he had fallen in love with her, he really couldn't say. All he knew was that he had. And tonight when Eric Bischoff stepped into the ring with them, he planned on showing her just how much.

 

**

 

~I'm back! Better then ever...~

 

'Right on time.' Trish whispered as she tore her gaze away from the man standing in front of her with as much malice as he had used to tear her heart from her chest, to look up at the Co-GM who slowly made his way to the ring, followed by his lackey announcer, Jonathan Coachman.

 

'Let's see,' she thought, her mind going back to what she had overheard between Jericho and Bischoff. 'How was this supposed to pan out?  Oh, that's right. Eric is going to climb into the ring and Coach was going to slip in after fetching a steel chair and as Coach held her in place, Eric would once again offer her a position by his side... and inevitably in his bed. Only this time he wasn't accepting 'no' for an answer.

 

It went like clockwork. As soon as it had finished playing out in her mind, it played out in reality as well.

 

The crowd chanted 'Y2J! Y2J! Y2J!' But just as she had predicted he stayed perfectly still. She refused to look at him, refused to give him the satisfaction of seeing her heart break that little bit more.

 

"So, what's it gonna be?" Eric asked holding up the steel chair as if to strike her. "A position as my personal assistant and all that position entails or the feel of cold, hard steel slamming down on that pretty face of yours." Eric turned to the crowd and laughed as they started chanting Jericho's name again. "Wont do you any good," he taunted. "…once a heel alway's a heel. Isn't that right Jericho?" he continued turning to stare at the King of Bling Bling, who still had yet to move from his spot.

 

Trish's expression was thoughtful, but she already knew what his answer would be.

 

She had come out here knowing what would happen, yet deep down she had wanted to be wrong. Had wanted to believe that she had been right in trusting Chris, believing in him and the feelings she had for him. The feelings she thought he had for her. But when faced with the disappointing truth that he wasn't going to come to her aid, squashed any flicker of hope or love that she had felt for him. It was over. It was all over.

 

She lifted her eye's to meet Eric's, her eyes hard and full of hatred for all three men standing in the ring with her and with her head held high chose the chair.

 

**

 

He couldn't move. God, how he wanted to move, to tear that ass clown of an announcer's hands off of *his* Trish. But his feet wouldn't move forward! And it took him a few minute's before he realised why.

 

It was her eyes.

 

They looked so cold. Chilling him with her stare as soon as she'd entered the ring.

 

'She knows.' his mind told him. 'She knows about his part in this. She knows that he had agreed to help Bischoff get his revenge on her by getting her to trust him enough to follow him down to ringside under the ruse of an inter-gender tag team match.'

 

'God, she knew! And she hated him!'

 

He had to make her understand. He had to make her see that it had all changed for him. But his feet wouldn't move and his mouth was so dry he couldn't utter a sound.

 

'Damn it! She didn't know that he loved her!'

 

He heard Eric's ultimatum and felt his blood boil at the hidden innuendo behind his words.

 

'The bastard! The sick, perverted bastard! Damn it move!' his mind screamed. 'Move, please move...'

 

It was then that he heard her reply to Eric's offer and his heart did a little flip flop. She had chosen the chair! Knowing that Eric wouldn't hesitate in going through with his threat, yet she had still chosen the chair.

 

His feet became unglued after hearing her words and his eye's trained in on Coach's fingers where they dug into her arm's. But he'd only taken a few step's when the sound of glass shattering blared through the arena.

 

**

 

"Get him, Chris! Get Austin! Get him!"

 

Trish actually laughed at the sight of Eric scampering to the other side of the ring floor to cower behind Jericho. But her laughter soon died when Chris met and held her gaze.

 

Austin climbed into the ring and was handed a microphone straight away.

 

"Eric, Eric, Eric." Austin began as he paced back and forth in front of them. "You stupid son-of-a-bitch!"

 

The crowd roared with laughter and cheers and Trish suddenly found herself free as Coach shoved her down to the ring floor so he too could join Eric behind Jericho.

 

"I always knew you were up to something, you sumbitch." Austin said, his eye's on Jericho. "But for Trish's sake I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt. You see, unlike you, I care about things like friends."

 

"What?" The crowd roared.

 

"I said friends."

 

"What?"

 

"Another thing Stone Cold Steve Austin care's about is feeling's."

 

"What?"

 

"That's right, I said feelings."

 

"What?"

 

"Now, I know I can't whip your ass like I want too," his gaze went over Jericho's shoulder to meet Eric's gaze. "Or your sorry ass," he added before focusing back on Jericho. "Without provocation, so let me make this easy for you."

 

Again Trish wanted to laugh as Austin leaned forward allowing Jericho the perfect target.

 

But Jericho held back.

 

Austin sighed. "Okay, let me make it a whole lot easier for yah." he said taking a step forward. "I dare yah. Would you like me to close my eyes? Look no hand's." he said before dropping the microphone to clasp his hands behind his back

 

It all happened so fast Trish didn't even have time to issue a warning to Austin, but as she soon saw what was happening, he didn't really need a warning. Instead of going after Austin, Chris instead reached behind him, grabbed a fist full of Eric's shirt and propelled him forward. Straight into Austin.

 

'Wow.' Trish thought, her mouth falling open as Austin made short work of Bischoff while Jericho had the Coach thriving in pain in the middle of the ring as he applied the walls of Jericho.

 

The sound of Austin's music brought Chris's head up and all his rage left him as he saw her still lying on the ring floor where Coach had shoved her, her expression a mask of confusion and before even realising what he was doing, he had released the hold he had on the Coach and in a few short strides he was at her side. His hands ran over her body, as if checking for himself that she was okay, while Austin chugged beer and played up to the crowd before rolling out of the ring.

 

"Are you okay?"

 

His brow furrowed when she made no attempt to reply. The coldness he had seen earlier was once again in her eyes. He could do nothing but stare at her as she wrenched her arm from his grasp and backed away.

 

"Trish-"

 

"Save it, you sumbitch." Austin called from the ramp. "I think I can speak for Trish when I say," he tipped his head back. "If you think Chris Jericho just got dumped on nationwide television, give me a oh hell yeah!"

 

"OH HELL YEAH!"

 

**

 

Everybody's Fool - Song Lyric's

 

Prefect by nature

Icons of self indulgence

Just what we all need

More lies about a world that

 

Never was and never will be

Have you no shame don't you see me

You know you've got everybody fooled

 

Look here she comes now

Bow down and stare in wonder

Oh how we love you

No flaws when you're pretending

But now I know she

 

Never was and never will be

You don't know how you've betrayed me

And somehow you've got everybody fooled

 

Without the mask where will you hide

Can't find yourself, Lost in your lie

 

I know the truth now

I know who you are

And I don't love you anymore

 

It never was and never will be

You’re not real and you can't save me

Somehow now you’re everybody's fool

 

 

**

 

Title: Tourniquet

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Tourniquet' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.'

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

AN: By request this is a 'What if Jericho had been the dumper and Trish the dumpee' companion piece to 'Everybody's Fool.' Song lyrics to ‘Tourniquet’ follow at the end of part 2.

 

'Denotes thoughts and/or emphasis'

 

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Part 2 of 11

 

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"This is it, Li, he's going to ask me out. I know it."

 

Lita smiled in reply as she bounced from one foot to the other. She was happy for Trish, she really was. Hell, she was happy for them both, everything seemed to be looking on the up and up for once in their lives.

 

After weeks of battling Trish's defences, it looked like Jericho's charms finally broke through and she could see by the look on Trish's face that her friend was well on her way to being very much in love - If she wasn't already.

 

A shy smile graced her features knowing that she herself was heading down the same path with Christian. She had always been attracted to him - Always. Even when she was with Matt... And now it seems he felt the same way.

 

"Now that's a look I haven’t seen in a long time." Trish's words broke through her thoughts and she blushed. "So... Christian hey?" Trish said nudging Lita with her elbow.

 

"So... Jericho hey?" Lita replied nudging Trish right back.

 

Trish grinned. "What can I say? I'm not as immune to the self proclaimed king of the world as I make out."

 

"Believe me it shows." Lita grinned putting a stop to her bouncing by propping herself up on the table.

 

Both their heads turned to the television monitor and Lita leaned over to turn up the volume as Jericho's countdown entrance began.

 

"Well, I better get out there." Trish beamed as she stood. "If thing's go how I think they're going to go... you may be looking for a new room mate soon."

 

Lita shot Trish a wink. "Don’t worry, I got that covered. Now get out there." she said planting herself down in the chair Trish had just vacated. "I'll be here if you need me."

 

The door closed and Lita sighed as she settled down to watch.

 

**

 

The roar of the crowd was deafening but Trish paid it no heed as she made her way down the ramp to the ring where Chris waited. There eye's met as she neared the ring and he grinned down at her before walking towards the steel steps where he held the ropes open for her. She knew she must look silly with this permanent smile on her face, but god damn it she was happy and she wanted everyone to know that it was this man in the ring who made her happy.

 

She shivered as one of his arms banded around her while the other held a microphone. Her own hand moved up to play with his blonde locks that were gathered together in a ponytail at the back of his neck while her other drew tiny circles on the front of his glittery shirt.

 

"Do you love me?" his whispered words echoed throughout the arena.

 

"Yes." she answered not wanting to hold back anymore. Not when he looked at her like this or held her like this. She loved him. She loved Chris Jericho!

 

As soon as the words left her mouth he shoved her roughly away, and smirked as she looked up at him in askance, but he merely turned his back on her and addressed the crowd.

 

"Now, I know everyone here has been at loggerheads as to wether Chris Jericho is sincere in his pursuit of one Trish Stratus." he said into the microphone. "And tonight I wanted to set the record straight, you see, Trish and I have become very good friends over the past few weeks, well..." he chuckled again, "...some may even say *more* then friends, actually... I think I can safely say that Trish thinks of the King of Bling Bling as more then just a friend." He looked down at her for a second before turning his attention back to the crowd. "The way she was hanging off me just a minute ago is proof of that."

 

'What was going on?' she thought. Her eyes full of confusion could only stare at his back as he continued to talk to the crowd.

 

"It's always like that isn't it," he continued. "They all pretend like they don’t like you, then once you get them in the sack they think they own you."

 

Trish's mouth fell open.

 

Jericho laughed into the microphone. "But back to the subject at hand. Hmmm... What is Chris Jericho up too? Is he... or isn't he? Does he... or doesn't he?" He turned to her then and hooked his finger under her chin forcing her to meet his gaze. "Did I use poor little Trishy as a way to get at Austin?" He raised his brows and waited for her to answer but Trish didn't know what to think, her mind was a mass of confusion right now instead of the giddy happy feeling she had had prior to walking out. This man standing before her was not the sweet, attentive Chris Jericho who held her heart. She looked at him closely trying to see just a glimmer of the Chris she had come to love, but she saw naught. It was as if the Chris Jericho she knew had just packed his bags and left, leaving something evil and sinister in its place and she couldn't help her instinctive action as she inadvertently took a step away from him.

 

"Leaving so soon?"

 

The sound of someone behind her had Trish whirling around, her eyes filling with fear as Eric Bishoff, Molly Holly and Gail Kim stepped into the ring.  Trish shot a look back at Jericho and he grinned at her as Molly walked right up to him and planted herself flush against his side, her tongue snaking out to trail a slick path up the side of his jaw.

 

"Oop's..." he shrugged, "Guess the cat's out of the bag now hey." He continued, his own arms going up to wrap around Molly's waist, his mouth finding hers.

 

That's when something inside her broke. She felt it as sure as if someone had taken her by the arm and snapped it clean in two. It had all been a sham after all. He didn't care about her, he didn't respect her. She was in love with him and he had just shown her, shown the world that he didn't love her back.

 

She tentatively took another step back, 'Big mistake,' she soon saw as she backed right into Eric Bischoff. He merely grinned down at her, his eyes going from Jericho and Molly, then back to settle on her, a very satisfied gleam in his eye.

 

She took another step back, making sure to steer clear of Bischoff and Gail this time and her eyebrow shot up at him when he made no attempt to keep her in the ring.  He waved her off with a smile as Jericho and Molly joined his side along with Gail. The look in all there eye's telling Trish what she needed to know. They had no intention of hurting her physically, no, that wasn't enough for them. They wanted her hurt to be lasting.

 

And they had succeeded.

 

**

 

"Damn it open!"

 

Lita yelled throwing herself at the locker room door which someone had locked on the outside and judging by what was going on in the ring it didn't take too many guess's to pinpoint who exactly had locked her in. "Damn!" she cried when again the door failed to budge. She began to pace as her eye's drifted back to the monitor. "Damn 'him.'" she yelled again picking up a chair to hurl it at the door. "Damn 'them!'"

 

The door opened then and a stagehand poked his head through the slightly open door, his expression one of confusion. "Is everything okay-" he began but his words were cut off as a whoosh of red streaked passed him out of the room.

 

She ran through the arena hallways absently pushing open doors as she went. Her eyes fell on Christian as he came up the opposite end of the hallway and though it was hard she forced herself not to storm right up to him and knock his teeth down his throat!

 

"Have you seen her?" she spurted out over her shoulder as her eyes darted around yet another empty locker room. Not bothering to shut the door she turned to face him as he came to a stop a few feet away from her.

 

"Sorry, Lita," he began almost forlornly. He reached out, his hand clasping around the top of her arm as she made to move on. "I saw what happened down at ringside," he continued, his eyes boring into hers. "I promise you I had no idea what he was planning-"

 

"Didn't stop you from locking me in my locker room, did it," she spat with as much malice in her voice as she could muster.

 

"But I didn't-"

 

"Oh, save it!" she chuckled almost hysterically. "How can you expect me to believe you had no idea what was going to happen? He's your best friend!" she rallied, her voice rising as did her anger.  "Aren’t best friends supposed to share everything?"

 

"You have to believe me-"

 

"Why?" she cut in. "Because I included a photo of you and I together in my book? Because we shared a past?"

 

"No, because we were friends once and you trusted me, doesn't that count for something?"

 

She sent him a look that made him feel lower then scum. "No." she replied looking him straight in the eye. "After what happened down in that ring tonight, it counts for nothing." she wrenched her arm from his hold and stepped back. "Now if you will excuse me, my best friend is in pain and I need to be there for her because that's what best friends do."

 

She hurried down the hall before he could stall her a second time, stopping once she had rounded the corner to lean her forehead against the wall. God, how she wanted to cry right now, she wanted to just go home and crawl up in her bed and not have to think about Christian or what she felt for him. She had learnt along time ago that crying solved nothing, beside's she had to be strong for Trish. Trish was in this building somewhere and she was hurting.

 

Why did everything have to be so complicated?

 

Pushing herself off the wall she made to continue on down the hallway when she heard a sniffle. Her ears pricked up at the sound and she followed it, a few steps to the right and she had her ear up against a door marked 'janitor only.' Again she heard a sniffle and in the next instant she had opened the door.

 

Trish was crouched down in a corner, her knees drawn up to her chest and her head lowered, her face hidden behind a curtain of blonde hair. Her quiet sobs pulled at Lita's heart strings and the tall redhead found herself shoving buckets, mops and brooms out of the way so she could kneel down beside her friend.

 

"Trish?" she whispered wrapping her arm around her friend’s shoulders. "Trish, I'm here sugar. I'm here."

 

Trish's sobs came more harder then as she leaned over to bury her head in Lita's lap. "I can’t breath, Li..." she heard Trish whisper through her tears. "It feels like I can’t breath."

 

Lita felt her own tears on her cheeks, as thoughts of Christian floated around in her mind. In her heart, she new exactly what Trish was feeling, because she felt it too.

 

**

 

Tourniquet - Song Lyric's

 

I tried to kill the pain

But only brought more

I lay dying

And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal

I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming

Am I too lost to be saved

Am I too lost?

 

My god my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My god my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

 

Do you remember me

Lost for so long

Will you be on the other side

Or will you forget me

I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming

Am I too lost to be saved

Am I too lost?

 

My god my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My god my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

 

My wounds cry for the grave

My soul cries for deliverance

Will I be denied christ

Tourniquet

My suicide

 

**

 

Title: The Truth and the Lies

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Going Under' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.'

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

 

AN: The series title along with each song is from the album 'Fallen' and as a side note, I may add two other songs off their 'Bring Me To Life' single. Song lyrics follow at the end of part 3.

 

AN2: This part technically is the start of this series, but I am labelling it as Part 3 of 11 because it follows 'Tourniquet' which is the 'what if...' sequel to 'Everybody's Fool.'

 

'Denotes thoughts and/or emphasis'

 

**

 

Part 3 of 11

 

**

 

"What the hell was that, man?"

 

Jericho had expected his friend to be here waiting for him, especially after what had just happened down at ringside.

 

"And what the hell is *that*?" he added pointing to the two laughing divas who had followed Jericho through the doorway.

 

"Aw, Christian..." Gail cooed, "Are you feeling a little left out?" She sidled up beside him, her hand moving to cup his cheek. "Need Gail to kiss it all better?"

 

Christian's brow rose in a derisive manner. "No offence meant here - no make that a lot of offence is meant when I say Eric's sloppy seconds aren’t my style." He took a step back letting Gail's hand drop from his cheek, ignoring the looks of pure hatred he was getting from both woman and turned his attention back to Jericho to see that Molly had one-upped Gail's actions and planted herself right in his best friends lap. "What is wrong with you man?"

 

Jericho shrugged, extending his legs in an attempt to stretch giving the current woman's champion no choice but to remove herself from his lap. 'Doesn't she get there little in-ring kiss was just for appearance's sake?' he thought with disgust. He picked up his bag and started rifling through it mainly so he wouldn't have to face his friend.  How could he explain to Christian why he had done what he did. It hurt to think about the past few weeks, to think about how much he wanted to be apart of Trish's world, only to have everything thrown back in his face.

 

"Chris, if our friendship mean's anything to you-"

 

"Will you lady's leave us." His voice had an edge to it and the two divas wasted no time moving towards the door.

 

"Come find me later, okay?" Molly said blowing Jericho a kiss as she breezed out of the room.

 

Christian shook his head as he watched the two divas make there way down the hallway before shutting the door. He turned to see Jericho with his back to him, his eyes glued to the tiny monitor on the table. They were showing a replay of his actions down at ringside and Christian watched as Jericho's hand lifted to brush his finger along an up close screen cap of Trish's hurtful expression, his finger staying there long after the screen had changed.

 

"Chris, talk to me. What happened out there?"

 

"What happened?" Jericho repeated running a hand through his hair in exasperation. "I'll tell you what happened. What always happens when the King of Bling Bling opens his heart?" Jericho smiled and shook his head. "It got trampled on, that's what happened."

 

"Are you sure?" Christian asked a confused look on his face. "Cause from back here it looked like you were the one doing all the trampling."

 

"Yeah, well, believe me she did her fair share of trampling, if you need more convincing why don’t you go and ask that ass clown John Heidenreich."

 

"John Heidenreich?" Christian's brows drew together. "What's he got to do with this?"

 

Jericho's response was to stare pointedly back at him with a suggestive look in his eyes.

 

"No." Christian's mouth fell open. "Trish and Heidenreich?"

 

Jericho nodded.

 

"How do you... oh, wait, let me guess. Molly right?" he said pointing to the closed door. "Or maybe Bischoff?"

 

"What does it matter how I know," he said flicking off the monitor before going back to his seat on the bench.  "The point is I know."

 

"I don’t believe it."

 

"Believe it." he replied shoving his things in his bag.  "I confronted Heidenreich and he told me himself it was true."

 

"Yeah well I don’t, okay." Christian said honestly. "And frankly neither should you. These past three weeks I got to know Trish as well, she wouldn't do something like this, man. It's not her style."

 

"Are you forgetting how she first started in this business?"

 

Christian couldn't believe what he was hearing. "Are you forgetting that that was a long time ago?"

 

Jericho's eye's fell to the floor and he shuffled from foot to foot. "Didn't take long for the past to catch up with her when an opportunity to see *Little Johnny* arose."

 

"Little Johnny?" Christian said shouldering his own bag as he stood to wait for Jericho to finish changing into his street clothes. "What's 'Little Johnny' got to do with this?"

 

Jericho glared at Christian as if he had just sprouted an extra head. "Trish has seen..." Jericho waved his hands in front of him as he searched his vocabulary for the right words. "She has seen his... *Little Johnny.*" His nostril's flaring as Christian merely shrugged indifferently.

 

"What's wrong with that? I've seen *Little Johnny.*"

 

"Y... you... his..." His face screwed up in disgust. "Christian that is just sick."

 

"Don’t know why you’re getting all worked up. Most of the roster has seen *Little Johnny.*"

 

"Most of the... am I the only one with any morals in this arena?"

 

"Chris, I don’t think we're on the same page here, you do know that *Little Johnny* is Heidenreich's nephew, right?"

 

Jericho's face drained of all colour and his hands stilled in their actions of zipping his bag closed as his eyes met Christian's across the room. "H... his nephew?"

 

"Yeah, man, who'd you think *Little Johnny* was?"

 

"I... don’t... they told me... *Little Johnny*... they said... his... shit!"

 

Christian's eyes widened in realisation. "That goes double for me." He said clapping a hand on his friends shoulder. "Molly and Gail hate Trish... how could you believe there lies?"

 

"I didn't at first... but after speaking with Heidenreich..." his words trailed off and he tipped his head up to stare at the ceiling. "…did you see her face? She was devastated."

 

"Yeah, I saw." Christian leaned back against the wall and rubbed at his eyes with his hand.

 

"She must hate me." Jericho said leaning back beside Christian.

 

"That pretty much is a go."

 

"You’re not helping."

 

"If it makes you feel any better, Lita hates me now too."

 

Jericho let out a slow deep breath feeling more of a cad then he did when he found out *Little Johnny* was Heidenreich's nephew and not his... 'You ass, Jericho.' he thought looking down at his feet. "Sorry, bro."

 

"I know you are." Christian said placing a hand on his friends shoulder. "Question is what are you going to do to fix it?"

 

Jericho closed his eyes and allowed his mind to take him back to ringside. The image of two deep brown pools encasing a cocktail of confusion, agony and betrayal etched itself onto his brain. "Fix it?" he repeated quietly, almost as if he were talking to himself. He pushed himself off the wall, shouldered his bag and pulled the door open before lifting his eyes to meet Christian's. "I don’t think I will ever... EVER... be able to fix this."

 

Christian picked up his bag and followed his friend out into the hallway, he wished there was some way he could be wrong, but the truth was after witnessing what Jericho had done tonight as well as the way Lita had looked at him earlier, he couldn't help but think the same.

 

**

 

Song Lyrics - Going Under by Evanescence off their album Fallen.

 

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

50 thousands tears I've cried

Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you and you still wont hear me

Dont want your hand this time I'll save myself

Maybe I'll wake up for once

Not tormented daily defeated by you

Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

 

I'm going under

Drowning in you

I'm falling forever

I've got to break through

I'm going under

 

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies

So I don’t know what’s real and what's not

Always confusing the thoughts in my head

So I can’t trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

 

I'm going under

Drowning in you

I'm falling forever

I've got to break through

 

So go on and scream

Scream at me I'm so far away

I won’t be broken again

I've got to breath I can’t keep going under

 

**

 

Title: This Pain Is Just Too Real

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'My Immortal' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.'

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

AN: Song lyric's follow at the end of part 4.

'Denotes thoughts and/or emphasis'

 

**

 

Part 4 of 11

 

**

 

"You sure you’re going to be okay?"

 

Trish turned from the hotel window she'd been looking out of to offer her friend a half hearted smile. "I'll be fine, Li..." she said, adding,  "...honestly." to the end of her sentence when Lita still looked doubtful.

 

"I just wish I could see the logic behind Bischoff banning you from the arena." Her expression turned thoughtful. "If anything you'd think he'd be ordering you to be there just so he could gloat."

 

Trish turned back to the window.  "Yeah, well, who knows what goes on in his sick little mind?"

 

"I certainly don’t, nor do I want to!" Lita said holstering the strap of her bag over her shoulder. "You got my number, right?"

 

Trish nodded, though she didn't turn her gaze from the window.

 

"Trish?"

 

She turned then and Lita saw the torment Trish was hiding behind her mask of bravery. She wanted to be there for her friend, to lighten her painful burden by helping her carry it but even she knew she couldn't be there all the time. With Austin gone, Bischoff had the run of Raw and his first itinerary change had been granting all five members of Team Bischoff a special favour for getting rid of Austin and his second change had been to book her into a match without enlightening her to the stipulations, he had merely stated that she would find out on the night and then with his next breath had banned Trish from the next show. And they both knew better then to think Bischoff did it out of the goodness of his heart, no, the son of a bitch probably wanted the little blonde to wallow in her self pity alone.

 

'Damn I hate him.' she whispered softly to herself but aloud she said, "I'll be back as soon as my match is over, okay?" Lita sent her friend one last look before leaving there hotel room.

 

**

 

Trish didn't know how long she stayed standing at that window after Lita left. Her mind took in all that was happening outside, the colour of the sky, the tree's, the flowers planted in a window box of a neighbouring building... even the dark hard asphalt that cars, bicycles and pedestrians were currently careening down, all going about there business as rush hour drew upon them, all strangers who would or had already meted out there own brand of pain and hurt.

Across the street she saw a small child running through a flock of birds that had gathered to partake of the breadcrumbs the child's mother had just thrown. She smiled, remembering a time when she, herself would run just as freely as that small child, no responsibilities, no cares, no limitations, everything was right in her little world... and then she grew up and learnt how to feel. She learnt that pain came in many shapes and forms, that liar's usually came attached to honest faces and that no matter how many times the sun rose and set, the pain never eased. Not even a little bit.

 

How she had made it through this past week, she did not know. Lita being by her side had definitely been a godsend but when it came to times like these, times when she was alone, times when her mind gave her no choice but to remember what came to her every night in her dream state.

 

Chris didn't love her.

 

No tears came to her eyes now as they had so many times before, instead she was just left an outer casing to hold within there walls all the pain and hurt that made up the rest of her.

 

Chris loved Molly

 

She turned away from the window then, moving towards the mini bar she grabbed three small bottles and a glass and then walked back across the room to her bed.

 

Chris didn't love her.

 

Her hand reached automatically to the beside table and opened the cabinet to withdraw a small silver blade she had put there earlier that week just for this purpose.

 

Chris loved Molly.

 

In her mind she saw her actions, felt her hands latch onto bottle after bottle, unscrewing the top's before emptying all three bottles in the glass.

 

Chris didn't love her.

 

Saw that same hand bring the glass to her mouth, felt the chill of the glass upon her lips as well as the heat of the liquid as it burned its way down her throat.

 

Chris loved Molly.

 

She felt the sharpness of pain on her arm and moments later a warm stickiness drip down her fingers to stain the bed covers, but with the help of the vodka that pain was fleeting, and she was able to do it again and again.

 

Chris didn't love her.

 

When all that was left was three empty bottles and one empty glass did she lay back on the bed to stare unseeing up at the ceiling, the blade she had clasped only seconds before forgotten as it slipped coated with her blood to the carpeted floor.

 

Chris loved Molly.

 

Yet still she could hear a tiny voice repeating its chant over and over again inside her head.

 

Chris didn't love her.  Chris loved Molly.

 

**

 

Song Lyrics - My Immortal

 

I’m so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There’s just too much that time cannot erase

 

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your tears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

 

You use to captivate me

By your resonating light

But now I'm bound by this life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There’s just too much that time cannot erase

 

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your tears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

 

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

And though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

 

**

 

Title: Am I So Insignificant?

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Missing' off the single track album 'Bring Me To Life' by 'Evanescence.'

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

'Denotes thoughts and/or emphasis'

"Denotes speech"

~Denotes song lyrics within the fic~

 

**

 

Part 5 of 11

 

**

 

"Hey, Lita."

 

Lita's hand stilled in mid-air as she looked up to see Lilian Garcia walking down the hallway, and then continued on it's path to the door handle, opening it with a little push before turning to face the little ring announcer.

 

"Hey, Lil." She smiled. "What are you doing back here? I thought the show started 30 minutes ago?"

 

Lilian's smile left her face. "It did. It seems Bischoff's replaced me for the night, claiming it's too dangerous for me to be out there."

 

Lita's brow furrowed. "Replaced you with who?"

 

"Coach." Lilian rolled her eyes then continued on before Lita could get a word in. "Slimey toad that he is." She closed her eyes and shivered visibly as if trying to shake away the memories. "That's why I'm here," She said opening her eyes once more. "I think they've got something planned. Something that involves you."

 

Lita looked both ways down the hallway before pushing the door open wider. "Maybe we better take this inside."

 

Lilian nodded before preceding the red head into the locker room.

 

"So," Lita said once they were inside. "What's makes you think Bischoff is up to something or more importantly why do you think it has something to do with me?"

 

"Because of what happened last week with Trish, not to mention the fact that Austin's gone." Lilian's voice softened and she clasped her hands in front of her to keep them from fidgeting. "How is she?"

 

"She's..." Images of her week spent comforting Trish sprang up in her mind, the tears and silent weeping, the restless nights and bleak days. "She's dealing as best she can."

 

Lilian reached out and squeezed Lita's hand for a moment before she turned back to the door. "I maybe way off base here with my assumptions, but..." She pulled the door open. "Just be careful out there okay?"

 

"Lilian?" Lita called before the little blonde could close the door behind her.

 

"Yeah," Lilian replied shooting Lita a look over her shoulder.

 

"Thanks."

 

**

 

"Making her way to the ring, from Stanford, North Carolina. Your favourite redhead, and mine... Lita!"

 

Lita ran down the ramp and slid beneath the bottom rope, sending Coach a glare before turning to acknowledge the crowd.

 

"And her opponent, the current WWE Women's Champion, Molly Holly!"

 

Lita stretched out her arms in anticipation as she waited for Molly to enter the ring. She had a week full of pent up aggression and hatred boiling up inside her for what had been done to Trish last week. Now, granted, she couldn't grab Jericho by his balls and yank them up through his nostrils like she wanted to, kicking Molly Holly's arse was a step in the right direction.

 

Molly smirked as she stepped through the ropes and Lita began to bounce on the balls of her feet, her eyes pinning the other woman as they both awaited the bell. But it never came. Instead Coach's voice rang out through the arena again. "And her tag team partner for tonight..."

 

Lita's brow furrowed. 'Tag team?'

 

"...My boss and the sole General Manager of Raw. Eric Bischoff!"

 

'I think they're up to something.' Lilian's words trailed through Lita's mind as she watched Eric smile, his eyes never leaving hers as he made his way down the ramp and into the ring.

 

Lita looked towards the referee, but all he could do was shrug, just as lost as to what was going on as she was. She started to back up keeping Bischoff, Molly and Coach in front of her as instinct had her body fall into battle stance.

 

"Yes, Lita. You heard right." Eric wasted no time in addressing her as Coach handed him the microphone. "See, now being the 'sole' GM of Raw... I get to too whatever the hell I want."

 

Lita's gaze darted to Molly who seemed just as fight happy as she was, her sneer firmly in place as she paced the floor space behind Bischoff.

 

"And what I want..." Bischoff continued. "...is to see everything Austin brought into Raw, gone..."

 

Her eyes hardened.

 

"...Beginning with you, Lita."

 

The crowd booed and an 'arsehole' chant was started but Bischoff paid it no heed.

 

"That's why I've changed this match to an inter-gender tag team match. You see, if you lose this match Lita, you lose your job. This way I get rid of you..." He grinned. "...As well as introduce the newest addition to the raw roster."

 

'Newest addition?' she didn't have to look to know her confusion was mirrored tenfold on the faces of everyone who wasn't one of Bischoff's cronies.

 

"Coach," Bischoff said waving the man over. "If you would do the honours."

 

Coaches grin went from one ear to the other as he accepted the microphone Bischoff handed back to him, brushing an invisible piece of lint from the sleeve of his shirt before turning to face the crowd. "And now, the newest addition to the Raw roster and Lita's tag team partner. All the way from Cameron, North Carolina..."

 

Lita's face drained of colour knowing what was coming next even if her mind refused to believe what she was hearing.

 

"...Matt Hardy!"

 

The crowd went wild, and Lita didn't blame them as her former boyfriend stepped through the curtain, after all, he had been and obviously still was a crowd favourite.

 

Inadvertently she took a step back, then another, her eyes darting around the ring until they came to rest on the eyes of Charles Robinson, a look of pity on his face and she knew then that other then the him, she had no one down at ringside or even backstage who would come to her aid.

 

She hadn't seen Matt for over a year, having parted on bad terms and by the way he now looked at her, she could tell 'bad terms' had grown into fully fledged hatred.

 

She was so screwed!

 

~Please, please forgive me~

~But I won't be home again~

~Maybe someday you'll have woke up~

~And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one~

~Isn't something missing~

 

~You won't cry for my absence, I know~

~You forgot me long ago~

~Am I that unimportant...?~

~Am I so insignificant...?~

~Isn't something missing~

~Isn't someone missing me~

 

~Even though I'm the sacrifice~

~You won't try for me, not now~

~Though I'd die to know you love me~

~I'm all alone~

~Isn't someone missing me~

 

 

"Come on, man," Christian said pulling there rental car to a stop inside the arena car park. "Better to get it over and done with."

 

"But she hates me."

 

"Yeah, well, you can’t really blame her." Christian said softly, opening the car door he stuck one leg out, planting one steel toe booted foot down on the concrete before turning to look at his friend over his shoulder. "We all work on the same roster, we're bound to run in to each other sooner or later and I don’t know about you but I see that as a good thing. I am going to do my damnedest to get Lita back and if you had any sense you'd be moving heaven and earth to get Trish to trust you again instead of whining your arse off."

 

Over the past week Chris had moped around the hotel room they shared, in his mind he had recreated what had happened last week countless times, over and over and over again. And every single time he would inwardly kick himself for the way he had treated Trish. Then kick himself some more for believing in Molly's lies and allowing her and Bischoff to use him to get at Trish. Yet, he couldn't blame them. No matter how much he tried to. He couldn't even blame that ass clown John Heidenreich.

 

No. He had no one to blame but himself.

 

With a long drawn out sigh he opened his door, stepped out from the car, grabbed his bag from the trunk and followed Christian inside.

 

**

 

Upon entering the arena, Christian saw it was the same old scene. Men and women gathered in their little groups, a lot of 'ooohhs', 'aaahhs' and 'god damns' thrown around as they watched the action happening down at ringside.

 

He had never really noticed how barren an arena was. How cold it's stone walls could make one feel. He shook his head, turning to look over his shoulder at Jericho.

 

"I really don’t feel like joining in with the other's tonight, I may just go find our locker room."

 

"Sounds good to me," Chris said adjusting the strap on his bag, before hauling it back up onto his shoulder. "Don't really feel like being Mr Chatty tonight."

 

They headed away from the others towards the locker room when something caught Christian's eye and he reached out to pull Chris to a stop.

 

"What look's wrong in that picture?" He said nodding towards Lilian who stood alone, away from the others. Her shoulders were shaking as if she were crying and before he even knew what he had done, Christian found himself standing behind her.

 

"Lilian?"

 

She jumped at the sudden sound behind her and as she turned to face them, he saw nothing but fear in the petite ring announcer’s eyes.

 

"W... what do you want?"

 

Christian cringed as she shied away, memories of when he had shoved her down at ringside flashing through his mind. "I'm not gonna hurt you, I just saw you here and you looked... you looked..." His word's trailed off as he saw exactly what Lilian had been watching.

 

"Eric fired her." Lilian offered, turning back to the screen. The image of Lita struggling to hold back tears in the ring as Eric Bischoff and Matt Hardy towered over her, supreme satisfaction glowing in Eric's eye's as he watched her crumble, hatred and loathing in the eye's of the other.

"Guess he's out to prove this really is his show."

 

Christian saw Lita slip to her knees and roll out of the ring, the look on her face before she disappeared behind the curtain twisting his gut.

 

"Where you going?"

 

He heard Jericho's voice behind him and stopped, confusion marring his features. He had totally forgotten his best friend was there. "I have to make sure Lita's okay."

 

"But we have a match..."

 

Christian looked at his friend a moment and sighed. They had been friends and partners for along time, yet, why did he suddenly feel like he was seeing Chris Jericho for the first time.

 

"Screw the match." He said and without another word he turned on his heel and walked off.

 

 

~Please please forgive me~

~But I wont be home again~

~I know what you do to yourself~

~I breathe deep and cry out~

~Isn't something missing~

~Isn't someone missing me~

 

~Even though I'd be sacrificed~

~You won't try for me, not now~

~Though I'd die to know you love me~

~I'm all alone~

~Isn't someone missing me~

 

~And if I bleed, I'll bleed~

~Knowing you don't care~

~And if I sleep just to dream of you~

~And wake without you there~

~Isn't something missing~

~Isn't something...~

 

~You know I'm the sacrifice~

~You wont try for me not now~

~Though I'd die to know you love me~

~I'm all alone~

~Isn't something missing~

~Isn't someone missing me~

 

"Lita?"

 

She stopped at the sound of Christian's voice, but didn't turn to face him. After all that had happened tonight you'd think she'd know better then to put herself in a position to be hurt twice in one night, but for some reason she couldn't make her feet move. Neither did she offer any protest as she felt the strap of her bag leave her shoulder. Keeping her head low she willed her tears to hold out for just a little while longer, yet as she felt his arm band around her shoulder she knew it to be a lost cause.

 

"Shhhh..."

 

She felt his breath on her face and his lips in her hair as he turned slightly to whisper soothing words into her ear as he lead her out to the car park.

 

"You’re gonna be okay, Lita... I'm here."

 

**

 

Title: I'll Give Up Everything

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: *R*

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Taking Over Me' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.' Song lyric's follow at the end.

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

'Denote's thought's and/or emphasis'

"Denote's speech"

 

WARNING: Towards the end it gets very dark and angst in regard's to death and how it affects those around us.

 

**

 

Part 6 of 11

 

**

 

'He had walked out! Left the arena!'

 

Chris paced the inside of the locker room he was supposed to be sharing with Christian like a caged animal.

 

'He would probably get his ass kicked big time once Bischoff caught wind of it.'

 

A knock sounded at the door.

 

'That is, if he hadn't already.' He added silently, turning his back to the door before uttering a gruff, "Come in."

 

The door opened a fraction, and then a little bit more, then more still, until a timid stagehand poked her head in through the opening, her eye's meeting his reflected ones in a mirror hanging on the opposite wall. "S... sorry to bother you, Mr Jericho..." She began cautiously.

 

Chris saw the knuckles on her hand turn white as she gripped the side of the door and he realised then that this girl was scared. Scared of him.

 

A look of recognition flashed in his eyes as he realised this was the same stagehand who had fetched him a bottle of water all those weeks ago. He had been a real prick to her then, no wonder she had fear in her eyes now.

 

'Is this what he had been reduced to?'

 

"Ah... Mr Bischoff is waiting for you in his office."

 

He nodded curtly, and then surprised himself as well as her by saying... "Thanks."

 

After the door had closed upon the stagehand's exit, he sank down on a bench beside his gym bag. 'There was no mistaking why 'he' had been summoned to Bischoff's office. Christian's actions were probably buzzing throughout the arena right now. Hell, it might already be up on the internet!'

 

'I'm going to do my damnedest to get Lita back.' Christian's declaration rolled around and around inside his head. 'If you had any sense you'd be moving heaven and hell to get Trish to trust you again.'

 

'Would she trust him again?'

 

'Would she love him again?'

 

He sucked in his bottom lip, worrying it with his teeth until he tasted blood. His gaze turned steely and he got to his feet, shouldering his bag and walking out of the locker room... and carried on walking, past the catering area, past the medical room and straight out the exit door's.

 

There was only one way his questions would be answered, and that way did not include a stop over at Bicshoff's office.

 

**

 

"Here, keep the change." Jericho said chucking some bill's over the front seat of the cab before jumping out.

 

"Evening, Mr Jericho."

 

"Evening," He replied, looking up at the doorman as he stood ready to open the door of the hotel for him, again seeing shock register in the eye's of this stranger. Just like he had seen shock in the eye's of the stagehand back at the arena.

 

'Had he really been that much of an ass?'

 

He smiled, taking note of the doorman's name tag. "Jim."

 

"Yes, sir."

 

"You probably see everyone who comes and goes right?"

 

"If they enter or exit the hotel through these doors after 4pm, then 'yes,' They would have passed by me." Jim replied, grinning from ear to ear.

 

"So... you could tell me if my fellow Canadian friend and a certain red head who both work for the same company I do came back here?"

 

Chris didn't think this guy's grin could get any wider. But it did.

 

"Yes, sir. I could tell you that... if they came back here."

 

"Are you saying they didn't?" Chris quirked a brow.

 

"That's exactly what I'm saying, sir."

 

Chris frowned. 'If they didn't come back here... then where the hell were they?'

 

"But..." Jim continued when Chris made no further comments. "Miss Stratus hasn't left the hotel all night, maybe she could be of some assistance- Sir! Sir please! This is a respectable establishment!" He exclaimed when Chris stepped forward, grabbed him by the collar of his blazer and pulled him forward, kissing him soundly on both cheek's.

 

"Thank you." Chris said before walking a hurried path towards the elevator's, leaving a very red faced doorman in his wake.

 

He got off at the sixth floor. Apparently this was the floor all the 'face' wrestler's had been assigned to. He cautiously made his way down the hallway, shooting looks over his shoulder as he went. Now would not be a good time for him to run into anybody... and considering what floor he was on, *anybody* or *bodies* wouldn't think twice about kicking his pathetic little ass.

 

He stopped at door number twelve and worry washed over his expression. Trish had told him that they alway's got room number twelve, but what if they had changed it?

 

Sighing, he raised his hand to knock. He had come this far, he may as well go all the way. He stared intently at the door. One of three things awaited him on the other side.

 

1. The woman he loved.

2. A major ass kicking.

3. None of the above if the occupant's of this room were still at the arena.

 

He knocked.

 

No answer.

 

He knocked again.

 

Still no answer.

 

He took a step back and looked both way's down the hallway. He felt like someone was watching him and he couldn't understand why he got a sudden chill up his spine as an almost urgent feeling gnawed at him to open the door. It was as if someone were behind him with both there hand's planted firmly on the back of his shoulder's, pushing him, willing him to open the door, step through and to hell with the consequences.

 

Before he even knew what he was doing, he had lifted his booted foot and kicked the door open!

 

The scene he was met with as he entered brought him to his knees. Tear's coursed unheeded down his cheeks as he reached out to touch her icy hand with his shaky finger's feeling tentatively for a pulse. It was there, but it was faint.

 

Instinct had him reaching for the phone on the bedside table, watching as his fingers punched in the emergency number displayed in bold text on the receiver cradle.

 

His eye's fell to her face as he spoke into the phone. She was so still and remnant's of the tear's she had cried mixed with mascara caked around her eye's before trailing down her cheeks. He dipped his head towards hers and touched his warm lip's to her near cold ones, noting the bluish hue that started to form there.

 

He moved back, again reaching for the phone and it was at that moment that he noticed Trish clutched something in her hand. Gently pulling the article from her fingers, the sight of what exactly it was sent a pain to the liking of a long sabre being embedded into the folds of his heart and then twisted back and forth in quick succession, shooting through his chest.

 

It was a hockey shirt. 'His' hockey shirt!

 

"Trish... Trish..." He cried, lifting the shirt to his face, seeing traces of her mascara and lipstick on the shirt as if she too had cried into it, just as he was now.

 

'What had he done? God, what had he done?'

 

Only when the sound of a siren blaring broke through his dejected mind, did he allow himself to move, backing away as a medical team rushed in. And only when the medical team had tucked Trish safely into the back of the ambulance did he take hold of his senses again.

 

Reaching into the inside pocket of his jacket, he pulled out his mobile phone and dialled Christian's number.

 

**

 

Song Lyric's - 'Taking Over Me' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence'

 

You don't remember me

But I remember you

I lie awake and try so hard

Not to think of you

But who can decide what they dream?

And dream I do...

 

I believe in you

I'll give up everything just to find you

I have to be with you, to live, to breathe

You're taking over me

 

Have you forgotten all I know

And all we had?

You saw me mourning my love for you

And touched my hand

I knew you loved me then

 

I believe in you

I'll give up everything just to find you

I have to be with you, to live, to breathe

You're taking over me

 

I look in the mirror and see your face

If I look deep enough

So many things inside, that are

Just like you, are taking over me

 

**

 

Title: I'm Still Here

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: *R*

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Hello' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.' Song lyrics follow at the end of part 7.

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

'Denotes thought's and/or emphasis'

"Denotes speech"

 

**

 

Part 7 of 11

 

**

 

'Is this heaven?' Her mind asked.

 

She had glimpsed a lot of white before the burning pain lifting her eye lid's had caused, forced her to succumb to the darkness once more.

 

The darkness felt better. Safe. Except for the memories. They were still there, as was the pain those memories evoked. She knew no matter how long it took, she would never be free of them.

 

She wanted so much to reach up and rub away the heat coursing through her temples, but her hands wouldn't move. Nothing would move. She guessed that was one thing she could be thankful for, considering she had nothing to move for. Nothing to live for. Whatever happened when she finally found the strength to open her eyes and look around... happened. She didn't want or need to know and she certainly didn't care anymore.

 

All that mattered was that she would never have to see *him* again. Never have to see *him* with Molly. Never have to be a witness to there love, as she had been a witness to there open show of affection all those night's ago in the middle of the ring.

 

She felt a sharp jab on the underside of her elbow, a tiny pin prick that was gone just as quickly as it had come. Then there was pressure at her wrist's and then her neck.

 

What was that incessant noise drumming through her ears? Voice’s? Had she arrived at the gate's of heaven where her maker would be waiting to either deliver her beyond the gate's and on to a new world of infinite time... or shun her, leaving her at the mercy of the anti-Christ.

 

Flashes of light emanated through her closed lids and she fought the urge to open them as the voice's got louder and more clearer. Voice's she recognised.

 

Her eye lids fluttered and she squinted at the brightness that filled her line of sight, before it gave way to a brightly lit room. A room full of machines and tubes. Tube's that were connected to her at certain point's of her body.

 

And then she saw the hunched form of Lita sitting in a chair to her right. Her head lowered as she quietly wept. She wanted so much to comfort her friend, to tell her not to mourn so much for a weakness she had had no control over.

 

Lita's head lifted then. She looked tired and her eyes were red and swollen as they met hers, a fresh batch of tears already starting to form in her eyes as she reached out to gently clasp Trish's hand in her own.

 

As much as she was happy to see her friend, Trish couldn't will her mouth to smile. No. That happiness was cut short the moment she felt Lita's hand touch hers and she knew... she knew at that exact moment, that she was *still here*.

 

She felt her lips move as her body tried to say what her mind was screaming. Ignoring the irritating scratch her word's made as they travelled up her dry throat.

 

Her words would hurt Lita, she knew. But nothing could compare to the hurt she felt in her heart.

 

"You should have let me die..." Her word's came out in a choked whisper and she closed her eyes to Lita's gaze and turned her head away. "You should have let me die."

 

Behind them, the presence of the two men standing in the doorway went unnoticed by the two divas. The shorter of the two men bowing his head before he turned and walked away.

 

**

 

Song Lyric's - 'Hello' by 'Evanescence' off the album 'Fallen.'

 

Playground school bell ring's again

Rain cloud's come to play again

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

Hello, I'm your mind giving you

Someone to talk to

Hello

 

If I smile and don’t believe

Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Don’t try to fix me I'm not broken

Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide

Don’t cry

 

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping

Hello, I'm still here

All that's left of yesterday

 

**

 

 

Title: Hiding In A Hollow Tree

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: *R*

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'My Last Breath' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.' Song lyrics follow at the end of part 8.

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

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**

 

Part 8 of 11

 

**

 

"Why don’t I take that?"

 

Chris grunted, well, Christian certainly hoped that was a grunt. It seemed the only sound Jericho made now a day's. His life, now two month's after finding Trish, consisted of mainly two things, wrestling and alcohol. He shook his head slowly as Jericho hugged the bottle to his chest so Christian wouldn’t take it away from him. This bottle kept him from breaking on the outside; whilst guilt slowly ate away at him on the inside.

 

"Come on, Chris. It's been two month's." Christian tried again to appeal to his friend's sober side. If one existed. The way Chris had been hitting the bottle lately, he highly doubted it, yet he had to try. Chris may have allowed what happened to Trish to consume him, rendering him to this pitiful excuse of a man seated before him now, but he'd be damned if he let Chris linger there any longer. "Don’t do this to yourself."

 

Chris sneered, growling into his bottle as he lifted it to his lips. He drank deeply seemingly oblivious to the potent effects of the liquid he was drinking, swiping a hand across his lip's when some of the liquid spilled down his chin as he pulled the bottle away.

 

"Better me then her."

 

His word's startled Christian. He couldn't believe Chris had actually responded, usually he just sat there nursing a bottle of whatever alcohol he could get his hand's on.

 

"It wasn't your fault, Chris."

 

Another grunt filled the air.

 

"It wasn't your fault." He repeated, leaning down so that he was on eye level with his friend, his own eyes daring Chris to turn away as he continued. "Lita tells me Trish is doing fine." He thought he saw something flicker in Jericho's eyes but it was gone so fast maybe he had just imagined it. "She's not one hundred percent yet, but she's getting there."

 

Chris lowered his eyes and stared at the half bottle of Jack Daniel's he held in his hands. "I'm glad." He whispered.

 

Christian saw the slight quiver in Jericho's chin and discreetly turned his head away, hating having to see his friend like this.

 

"She returns to Raw in a month's time," Christian continued, wanting to end the silence that had taken hold of the room.

 

Chris's eyes remained lowered, the bottle again going to his mouth.

 

"Damn it Chris!" Christian yelled, pulling the small framed mirror off the locker room wall to set it on a chair in front of Chris. "Is this how you want Trish to see you?"

 

Chris stared long and hard at his reflection, his face that of a man who had succeeded in pushing the one thing that meant anything to him so far over the edge that she had deemed her life unliveable, unloved and unwanted.

 

He had done that. Him. Chris Jericho. The first Undisputed Champion in the WWE.

 

'Is this how he wanted her to see him?' His mind repeated Christian's question, ‘A drunk who wallowed in past wrongs because he didn't have the strength to move past it. 'Hell yeah.' He thought, ignoring the look of defeat that entered Christian's eyes as the bottle once again met his lips. 'He deserved everything he was going through and more.' He only hoped that one day she would forgive him, even though deep down he knew he'd have better luck extending his arm to the sky and pulling down a handful of stars.

 

...Maybe then he'd be able to forgive himself.

 

**

 

Song Lyric's - My Last Breath by Evanescence

 

Hold on to me love

You know I can’t stay long

All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid

Can you hear me?

Can you feel me in your arms?

 

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you?

Sweet rapture light

It ends here tonight

 

I'll miss the winter

A world of fragile things

Look for me in the white forest

Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)

I know you hear me

I can taste it in your tears

 

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you?

Sweet rapture light

It ends here tonight

 

Closing your eyes to disappear

You pray your dreams will leave you here

But still you wake and know the truth

No one's there

 

Say goodnight

Don’t be afraid

Calling me, calling me as you fade to black

 

**

Title: I Believe In You

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: *R*

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Taking Over Me' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.' Lyric's at the end of part 9.

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

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**

 

Part 9 of 11

 

**

 

"Hey."

 

The redhead's face brightened when she pulled the door open to reveal the man who had become not only her friend again, but also her saviour.

 

"Hey." she whispered back stepping forward for a hug.

 

She felt Christian's breath fan her cheek before he pulled back, his hands coming up to cup her cheeks as there gazes met. "How you holding up?"

 

"Better, now your here." she smiled back at him.

 

"And Trish?"

 

The redhead's smile dimmed somewhat as she looked behind her at her friend who still stood by the window staring out at the sky. Stepping all the way out of the room, Lita pulled the door shut behind her.

 

"She's doing better, although I think she maybe a bit apprehensive about returning to Raw. She doesn't know how she's going to be received."

 

"With Jericho?"

 

"With Jericho, the whole roster, the fans, everything!" Lita exclaimed throwing her hands up in the air. "You know as well as I do that not everyone is going to be as 'understanding' about Trish trying to... well you know... there is going to be those select few within the roster who are going to enjoy tormenting her."

 

"I wouldn't worry about them," Christian said shrugging off her concerns as he leaned against the wall, his hands shoved deep into the pockets of his jeans and his leg's slightly parted. "What they know about what happened is all hearsay, only you, me and Chris know what really happened."

 

"How is Jericho, I haven't seen him since the hospital."

 

This time is was Christian's turn to lose his smile as he remembered how he had left his friend passed out in the hotel room they shared.

 

"Still drowning in a hole of guilt and alcohol," Christian replied honestly.

 

"If only we could get them to talk or something..." Lita mused silently not realising she had spoken out loud until she caught the shine that entered Christian's eyes, his mouth turning up in a crooked half grin. Her eyes widened. "Christian, I was kidding!"

 

"I know, I know," he conceded holding his hands up in surrender when it seemed like she was ready to pounce on him. "It's just, seeing him like this day in and day out... I'm ready to try anything." He turned so that his shoulder was against the wall. "Do you think there's a chance Trish may still love Jericho?"

 

Lita turned also, so that she was facing him.

 

"I don’t think she ever stopped, but we might cause more harm then good by forcing them together. It might be better to just let them work through this at there own pace."

 

"I know for a fact that Chris loves her more then life, his current actions of late are proof of that."

 

Lita sighed. She had seen the tapes of Jericho's last two matches, both against Kane. Both not pretty. If anything she knew that what Christian said was true.

 

"He's drunk all the time, Li." Christian continued.

 

"And Trish is alway's staring out that damn window."

 

"You don’t think she's gonna jump, do you?"

 

"No." Lita stated slapping his arm.  "In the months that have passed, Trish has found her strength again, her strength to live anyway. I think what she's looking for now is her strength to love."

 

Lita looked up to see Christian smiling down at her. "And you?" he whispered, hooking his thumb under her chin to keep there gaze's locked. "Have you found your strength to love?"

 

"Taking into account all that has happened since Matt made his return to Raw," she smiled up at him. "I think there's a pretty good chance."

 

**

 

Trish heard the soft click of the door closing as Lita stepped back into the room and smiled, she was glad something good had come out of all this mess, already knowing with whom the redhead had been conversing with on the other side of the door.

 

"Feel like a walk or something? It's not that late and it's a full moon." Lita suggested, joining her friend at the window. She felt Trish's small hand reach out and clasp hers even though Trish's gaze remained fixated on the streets below.

 

"I'm sorry, Li," she whispered, squeezing her friends hand gently.

 

"Sorry for what?" Lita asked, her brows rising.

 

"For not being strong enough to come to you when I needed help. For thinking I could handle it on my own, for not believing in our friendship. For what I said in the hospital, I didn't mean it Li, honest I didn't. I allowed all the pain and negativity inside of me to fester and multiply until it was all I thought about. You are the only one who has stood by me through the good and the bad, and you're still standing by me." Lita watched as her friend expelled a huge sigh as if a giant weight had just been lifted from her shoulders. "I'm sorry, Li, I'm truly sorry."

 

**

 

Song Lyric's - Taking Over Me by Evanescence

 

You don’t remember me

But I remember you

I lie awake and try so hard

Not to think of you

But who can decide what they dream?

And dream I do...

 

I believe in you

I'll give up everything just to find you

I have to be with you to live, to breathe

You're taking over me

 

Have you forgotten all I know

And all we had?

You saw me mourning my love for you

And touched my hand

I knew you loved me then

 

I believe in you

I'll give up everything just to find you

I have to be with you, to live, to breathe

You're taking over me

 

I look in the mirror and see your face

If I look deep enough

So many things inside that are

Just like you are taking over...

 

**

 

Title: I'm Not Afraid

Series: Fallen

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: *R*

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'My Last Breath' off the album 'Fallen' by 'Evanescence.' Lyric's at the end of part 10.

Feedback: Is much appreciated.

 

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**

 

Part 10 of 11

 

**

 

Lita couldn't help but giggle at the picture Trish made as she stood in the bathroom doorway, her duffle bag slung over one shoulder and her free hand planted firmly on her hip.

 

"You're still not ready?" The little blonde admonished as if she were scolding a small child. "Lita, we have less then thirty minutes to get to the arena and you haven't moved a muscle."

 

"Now, that's not true," Lita spurted out in defence. "Only a minute ago I went to the mini fridge for a bottle of water." she continued holding up the said item for Trish's inspection, but the little spit fire was having none of it as she dropped her bag to the floor and moved forward, seating herself on the small coffee table directly in front of the red head.

 

"What aren't you telling me?"

 

Lita couldn't help but sigh. She hadn't wanted to hinder Trish's healing process with more bad news, so she had kept the fact that her contract with Raw had been terminated a secret.

 

"Lita, come on, you're starting to scare me." Trish smiled half heartedly but Lita could tell by the way Trish chewed her bottom lip that she really was worried.

 

"I'm not coming to the arena." Lita confessed meeting her friend’s eyes for the first time. "Bischoff fired me."

 

"What?"

 

Lita shrugged indifferently, as if it was the last thing on her mind and stood to her feet, pulling Trish up with her. "It's no biggy, I'll watch your match here," she stated pointing to the small TV monitor in the corner. "And when you come back we'll go out and celebrate not only your return to the ring, but also your win."

 

"Bischoff's ass you will."

 

Lita was taken aback by the ferocity in Trish's words. "Excuse me?"

 

"You heard me." Trish replied her eye's flashing in determination. "You better get what you need because you are coming with me," she stated walking back to retrieve her bag before crossing the room and yanking the hotel door open. "Even if I have to carry your cute butt there myself."

 

Lita's eyes were like saucers but the hint of a smile tugged at the corners of her mouth at her friend’s outburst. "But Bischoff fired me."

 

"So, I'm hiring you."

 

Lita's smile got bigger. "You're hiring me?"

 

Trish returned her smile. "That's right. In the past few minutes I have decided that I need someone gutsy and cute in my corner, someone who's a crowd favourite who will and has stuck by me through thick and thin." She quirked her brow and motioned with a wave of her hand to the open doorway. "So, what'ya say? You up for walking a certain blonde Canadian down to ring side?"

 

**

 

Christian paced the floor space outside of the locker room he shared with Jericho for the night. He had no idea what to expect once he opened that door and walked in, having awoken this morning to find himself alone, a haphazardly scrawled note in Jericho's hand taped to the digital alarm clock sitting beside his bed. That same note now clasped between his fingers as he continued to pace.

 

Junior

Needed time to myself

Meet you at the arena

Don’t worry

Chris

 

'Don’t worry.' The note stated. 'How can I not worry?' he thought. 'Telling me not to worry is a sure fire way of making me worry!'

 

The last time Chris had taken off leaving only a note, he had arrived at the arena drunk as a fart and there hadn't been a god damn thing he could do when Jericho had taken it upon himself to interrupt Molly's match against Jackie Gayda, merely to tell her in no uncertain terms exactly what he thought of her, not only costing her the match but also reducing her to tears, something no one had ever achieved in the tough as nail's Women's Champion.

 

Gail had wisely kept herself busy backstage away from all the commotion, but Bischoff on the other hand was another story, laying down the law by threatening to fire them both if either one of them stepped out of line again.

 

'Both!' his mind screamed. 'Not just Jericho, but your sorry ass as well.' Christian closed his eye’s and silently counted to ten, promising himself that whatever Jericho had planned, he would make damn sure Bischoff wasn't around to see it. 'Didn't take a brain surgeon to see that Bischoff was still smarting over the fact that 'he' had left with Lita the night she had been fired.'

 

"Hey bro, where you been? I was just about to come find you."

 

Christian could only stare as the door he'd been pacing in front of for the past fifteen minutes opened and Chris appeared in the flesh. At least he hoped it was Chris. He shook his head and rubbed at his eyes, maybe it was just a trick of the light or something, but when again he looked up at the man still standing in the doorway his mouth once again fell open.

 

"Chris?"

 

The man before him rolled his eye's. "Of course Chris, who were you expecting? Ronald McDonald?"

 

"Y... you... what-"

 

"You like?" Jericho cut in stepping out of the doorway to do a little twirl in the middle of the hallway causing his trade mark glittery shirt to sway.

 

"Y... you look-"

 

"Like the old Chris Jericho?" he cut in again.

 

Christian nodded, frowned, stroked his chin, and then shook his head. Despite the obvious differences between *this* Jericho and the one who had been traipsing in and out of Drunksville for the past few months, there was a certain gleam in his eye's. A gleam that Christian had never seen before, it wasn't the cocky self assured I'm-the-king-of-the-world gleam either. This was different. *He* was different.

 

"I'll take your silence as a good thing, shall I?" Jericho chuckled as he stepped back into the room. "I woke up this morning..." he stopped in the middle of the locker room and turned back to see Christian still standing out in the hallway. "Well, you coming in or what?"

 

"Oh, right," Christian nodded, his expression still one of bemusement as he stepped into the room and shut the door.

 

"As I was saying," Chris continued. "I woke this morning with the strangest feeling, right here," He pointed to his chest as he spoke. "I found myself walking, and walking, I didn't even know where I was going, just let my feet take me where ever, gave me time to think about things, a lot of things concerning my life and my future. You could say I did a whole heap of soul searching and between waking up this morning and arriving here at the arena I found myself again, well half of me anyway."

 

Christian remained silent, letting his friend have his say.

 

"I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you. Thank you for being my conscience, for putting up with my drunken ass ways and most of all for being my friend."

 

Christian looked down at the hand Jericho had extended towards him in friendship before yanking on it, pulling Jericho in for a hug.

 

"You don’t have to thank me, bro," Christian said moving back, a mile wide grin on his face. "A wise person once said to me that being there for someone in there time of need, is what best friends do."

 

Jericho cocked a brow. "Lita?"

 

Christian's grin grew wider. "Lita." he repeated clapping his friend on the shoulder. "But," he continued. "What I don’t get is you said you had found half of you."

 

"Yeah," Jericho confirmed with a nod. "Wether I find my other half all depends on the outcome of tonight."

 

"Trish?"

 

Jericho's gaze grew serious and he nodded. "Trish."

 

**

 

Song Lyric's - My Last Breath by Evanescence

 

Hold on to me love

You know I can't stay long

All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid

Can you hear me?

Can you feel me in your arms?

 

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you?

Sweet rapture light

It ends here tonight

 

I'll miss the winter

A world of fragile things

Look for me in the white forest

Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)

I know you hear me

I can taste it in your tears

 

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you?

Sweet rapture light

It ends here tonight

 

Closing your eyes to disappear

You pray your dreams will leave you here

But still you wake to know the truth

No one's there

 

Say goodnight

Don't be afraid

Calling me, calling me as you fade to black

 

**

 

Title: Bring Me Back To Life

Author: PaulenaK

Email: toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: *R*

Disclaimer: Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Fic title is from the song 'Bring Me Back to Life' by 'Evanescence'. Song lyric's follow at end. Final in the 'Fallen' series.

Feedback: Is much appreciated and loved.

 

**

 

Part 11 of 11

 

**

 

"Trish?"

 

She turned and there eye's met before hers darted away shyly. She knew this time would come. Had prayed it would.

 

"Chris... hey..."

 

He took her response as a good sign and inched a step closer.

 

"Hey," he smiled. "Ah... how have you been?"

 

She wanted to look up, to look into his eyes, but she was afraid of what she might see there so instead she focused on his boots as he stood a few feet away from her.

 

"I'm good..." she spoke softly, so softly he nearly didn't hear her. "...now." she smiled wanly. "I guess you heard about-"

 

"Yes," he cut in seeing how visibly she sunk into herself, her arms wrapping around her middle as if protecting herself from the memory of what she had tried to do. "The original CD, should be fun." he continued purposely changing the subject.

 

Her eye's flittered up then, confusion settled within there depths.

 

"Ah, I just wanted to wish you luck tonight with your match. " he continued when she remained silent.

 

"Oh... thanks."

 

He watched as she shifted restlessly from one foot to the other. 'Why couldn't he think of anything to say?' he asked himself. Usually 'he' of all people was never at a loss for words.

 

"Well, I better go see what’s taking Lita so long." she pointed towards the exit doors. "She left something in our rental car."

 

His head snapped up at her words, his eyebrows joining in the middle. 'That’s exactly what Christian had said to him, which was why he was here now, to look for his wayward friend.

 

"Yeah…" he said looking towards the car park as well.

 

'Tell her you love her.'

 

"…I better go find Christian."

 

She nodded.

 

Neither one moved.

 

"Well, good luck tonight.' he continued.

 

'Tell her you love her!'

 

"Thanks, good luck to you too." she smiled and surprised herself as well as him when she reached out and gave his hand a squeeze.

 

Both their gazes seemed honed in on her action and as if of there own accord his fingers curled around hers, keeping her hand in place when she made to with drawl it.

 

His eyes darted to her mouth as the tip of her tongue snaked out to wet her lower lip and he couldn't help the shaky breath that passed through his own.

 

"Trish..."

 

She didn't know wether he had truly said her name or wether she had dreamed he had, all she knew was that he was tugging on her hand, pulling her to him.

 

And she was letting him.

 

Her eyes closed and her lips parted slightly as he dipped him head, she waited for the familiar feel of his lips on hers, but it never came. She opened her eyes and stared straight into his own, he leaned forward a bit more till his forehead was resting lightly on hers, his lips just a breath away.

 

"Not here..." he whispered, his breathing hurried. "Come with me, now... please..."

 

"Where?"

 

"I don’t know... somewhere... my locker room, just come..."

 

"But lita-"

 

"Please Trish..."

 

By the look in his eyes there was no doubt as to why he wanted her to follow him and no shock to her to realise that she wanted to go. After everything that had happened, she was still in love with Chris Jericho.

 

"Okay." she whispered feeling more alive now then she ever had before.

 

Her quiet affirmation was like a green light flashing 'GO' in his head and without realising it he half dragged her down the remainder of the hallway where she had been waiting for Lita and on towards his locker room.

 

**

 

Her lips teased his, tasting, wanting, treasuring... and he was putty in her hands. He groaned as her tongue darted out to trace the outline of his mouth, slowly sucking in his bottom lips between her teeth before lapping at the swell her action had caused once his lip was released.

 

"Baby..."

 

"Shhh..." she cooed, her lips going to his throat to play with his Adams apple. His hands tangled in her hair as her lips slipped lower, gasping when he felt her tongue slide over his nipple. Her teeth nipping on the tight bud before her mouth slid across to the other one.

 

He tried to pull her up. *He* had wanted to be the aggressor. Had wanted to show her how much he cherished her, how much he loved her. But she was having none of it, merely shoved him back against a row of lockers as her tongue continued down to play havoc within his navel.

 

And then, when her hands had found there way inside to waistband of his tights and proceeded to peel them down over his hips he lost all thought as her tongue touched and teased the place all men loved to be touched and teased.

 

He had no idea how he managed to stay on his feet, but one thing was for sure, she could damn well be the 'aggressor' anytime she damn well wanted to!

 

He wanted to arch into her mouth as she took all of him in, but resisted having already vowed she would find her release before him. He eased himself from her hold and couldn't help but smile down at her when her bottom lip jutted out.

 

"No, my sweet," he pulled her up flush against his body till his lips found hers. Kicking off his wrestling tights as they lay tangled around his feet.

 

'Hmmm, when had he removed his boots?' He had no idea and frankly, right now he didn't really give a shit, not when he had the woman of his dreams in his arms playing a game of 'who's tongue could snake down who's throat the furtherest'.

 

She won. And he had no qualms what so ever about giving her a reward.

 

His tongue trailed down the valley between her breasts, his hands moving up under her shirt, his fingers fisting in the material, pulling it taut across her breasts, his tongue flicking over the peaks through the material before pulling it up over her head.

 

She groaned as his tongue worked its magic, her cries of pleasure heightening his own painful need. His tongue teased and suckled at her nipples till they swelled even more with her arousal and she pouted yet again when he shifted his attention away from her nipples and he swore there and then that no man but him would ever see 'that' pout again.

 

Not yet finished with his exploration though, his tongue found her navel, his hands caressing as he rolled her tiny shorts down her legs where she obligingly stepped out of them. His hands moved back up to her hips, holding her in place as his teeth tugged on the waistband of her thong, pulling it down with a growl.

 

He blew on her mound and practically preened at the feel of her quiver beneath his hands. He slipped a finger inside her and then another and watched the display of pleasure that lit up her face like fireworks.

 

She cried out again and again as he worshipped her with his tongue and she swore rather un-lady like when he purposely pulled back just when she was about to plummet over the edge.

 

"Please..." she whispered arching herself into him.

 

He stool to his feet and lifted her, bracing them both against the lockers.

 

"Please..." she whispered again wrapping her legs around his waist.

 

"You have to know..." he breathed, striving for control. "I didn't plan for this happen when I came in here."

 

"I know," she replied hurriedly, her lips on his throat again.

 

"I knew 'he' would take her back to our locker room..." he continued.

 

"I know," she rolled her eyes at him before her mouth descended again.

 

"There's something else you should know," he continued, his hips pushing against hers even though he had yet to enter her.

 

"What's that?" she asked, biting his shoulder.

 

"I love you."

 

She stopped and lifted her head to look at him, seeing the truth of his words reflected in his eyes.

 

"You love me?"

 

"More then life itself."

 

And with a quick jerk of his hips he entered her, her cries of passion urging him on as he took them both to the brink and beyond.

 

"I love you too, Christian." Lita whispered into his ear as they both rode the final wave into oblivion.

 

**

 

"What the hell is going on here!"

 

The General Manager of Raw was given a wide girth as he stormed through the backstage hallways of the arena.

 

"This is the worst night of my life! I'll be lucky if I get to keep my job after tonight!"

 

"I'm sure it won’t come to that-" Jonathan Coachman tried to sooth his irate boss.

 

"Won’t come to that? WON’T COME TO THAT!" Eric shrieked turning his heated gaze on a now sputtering Coach. "Three wrestlers never appeared for there matches. Three wrestlers!" he repeated holding up a finger for each digit. "Count them, one, two, three. All main cards. All crowd pleasers. Linda McMahon hears about this and my ass is on the pavement! What the hell are you looking at?" Eric's words lodged themselves in his throat as he turned to see why all of a sudden Coaches eyes were as big as saucers. "Li... Li... Linda, you're here. Wh... What a surprise."

 

Linda McMahon smiled. "Hello Eric."

 

"I... I was just about to call you..." he said turning back to the Coach who began to vouch for his boss.

 

"Well, as you can see Eric. Somebody already did. And before you go on and dig yourself even deeper into the hole you slivered up out of, there's a few things we need to clear up."

 

Eric Bischoff visibly deflated.

 

"Number 1 - this 'is' indeed the worst night of your life. Number 2 - You 'will' be lucky if you still have a job after tonight." she looked over Bischoff's shoulder, "As will you." the Coach cringed as Linda continued. "And number 3 - 3 wrestlers Eric?"

 

"I can explain-" Eric protested but Linda shushed him with an up raised palm.

 

She shook her head. "Not 3, Eric. '4'. As far as I'm concerned the 4th one was never fired. 4 wrestlers are a no show. Two of whom brought some very disturbing news to my attention. News I should have been informed of immediately.

 

"I meant to, I've just been so busy-"

 

"And lastly," Linda cut him off again waving for the 4 security men who had been standing off to the side. "As for the pavement? Both your ass's are already there. Show them out boys."

 

Linda waved goodbye to both Eric and Coach as they were escorted from the building.

 

"Couldn't of done a better job myself."

 

Linda smiled up at the man who came out of the shadows to stand beside her.

 

"Thank you Steve."

 

"What do you wanna do about the other 4?" he asked with a grin.

 

Her smile widened. "Leave them where they are, they've suffered enough because of Bischoff's ego."

 

She reached into the inside of her jacket pocket and pulled forth a couple of door signs that read 'DO NOT DISTURB'.

 

"But first I think we better hang these on a couple of locker room doors. Don’t want any of the cleaning staff going into cardiac arrest, now do we."

 

Steve Austin chuckled as he fell into step beside the CEO of World Wrestling Entertainment.

 

"You’re the boss."

 

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End Series

 

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Song lyric's - Bring me To Life (bliss mix) by 'Evanescence'

 

 

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?

Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb

Without a soul my spirits sleeping somewhere cold

Until you find that there and lead it back home

 

Wake me up inside

Wake me up inside

Call my name and save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run before I come undone

Save me from the nothing I've become

 

Now that I know what I'm without

You can’t just leave me

Breathe into me and make me real

Bring me to life

 

Wake me up inside

Wake me up inside

Call my name and save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run before I come undone

Save me from the nothing I've become

 

Frozen inside without your touch without your love

Darling only you are the life among the dead

 

Wake me up inside

Wake me up inside

Call my name and save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run before I come undone

Save me from the nothing I've become

 

I've been sleeping 1000 years it seems

Got to open my eyes to everything

Don’t let me die here

Bring me to life

 

Wake me up inside

Wake me up inside

Call my name and save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run before I come undone

Save me from the nothing I've become

 

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End Series

 

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