Goodbye
Author: Genta ~
gentah@yahoo.com
Summary:
Tranissa has been the Undertaker’s personal assistant for 11 years. She’s been
the only stable thing in his life until he meets Sara. Will this
change things? Will ‘Taker realize what Tranissa is offering him
Disclaimer: I
own Tranissa.. People used are bounded to themselves
or WWE … Jagged Edge sings the song
Rating: R
Distribution:
just ask... Specifically WE_ATS_BTVS_Complete
Feedback: yes,
please
He sat and watched her go over
his calendar of events. Tranissa always kept him on top of things that he could
care less about. He did not mind the appearances but he could not keep up with
the when’s, where’s and other specifics. Taker had his ways of dealing with people
he worked with; he was always rough, rugged and to the point. But for some
reason, Tranissa could care less about him being the Undertaker. She was there
through all the gimmicks. To her, he had always been Mark Calloway. Despite his
objections, she called him Mark instead of Taker.
He noticed she was making a list
of something. He sighed as she continued to work and basically ignore him.
Tranissa Cannon had been the only stable thing in his life for the past eleven
years. She had been his personal assistant since she was eighteen. Mark for
once really observed her. She was 6’2’’ with long blackish auburn hair. She
wore purplish contacts and had the softest lips. Mark readjusted himself on the
bed. There were times when he could just look at her and she knew what to do.
But now things were different. She was 29 and had several other wrestlers after
her. Tranissa was starting to experience life beyond the Deadman.
Sometimes
What may be the best thing
For you to do
Sometimes it's the hardest thing
For you to do
And that, that's real 'cause
I know that I love you
I know how I feel about you
But I also know that don't
Make everything all right
And for that reason
I gotta say goodbye
Tranissa sat and waited for her
cell to ring. She knew she had asked a couple of people to call her. This was
killing her. This being in the room with the man she loved and not touch him, kiss him or just hear him moan her name. She
became his personal assistant because Vince owed Thomas, her dad, a favor.
Tranissa was quite the bad ass at eighteen and Vince assured Thomas that the
road would tame her. The road and Mark tamed her. She was feisty and refused to
be respectful to Mark. One night he decided enough was enough.
Mark and Tranissa argued for two
straight hours over petty things. He pushed a button when he called her an easy
bitch. Tranissa had never physically attacked a man but there was always a
first time for everything. Mark easily overpowered her and laid her on the bed.
He told her that he was not out to hurt her. He only wanted to love her. That
was the first night of many nights that they made love. Then came
Sara… Tranissa sighed as she noticed Mark and his stares. It was the hardest
thing she ever did letting the physical part they had go. It was the best thing
to do for her, Mark and Sara. She had to move on. Tranissa sighed as she fought
the yawn. She slowly drifted into a fantasy.
Tell me
Have you ever been in a
Situation where the
Best thing you could do
Was the hardest thing
You've ever done
(The hardest thing
You've ever done)
Mark knew exactly what Tranissa
was thinking. Hell, he was thinking the same thing. He moved off the bed and
towards her. Tranissa immediately turned to her work. Mark was going to try and
entice her. She looked over the upcoming week and struggled to ignore what was
happening. Mark gently rubbed her arms, only slightly brushing against the
sides of her breasts. Tranissa bit her lip as he moved to kiss on her neck.
Mark realized that she was not as resilient as he thought. He moved to caress
her thighs and continued to work on her neck. Tranissa released a moan instead
of the protest that was brewing in her head.
Mark undid her shirt and fondled
her breasts through her bra. He reached around and undid her bra. “Nissa, I love you!” Mark whispered. Just as Tranissa turned
to him, her phone rang. She sighed as she realized that Mark was sleep and her
sexual imagination was running out of control. “Hello?” Tranissa whispered as
she closed up everything.
“I figured you were mounted on
the Deadman by now.” Jeff joked as Tranissa sighed.
“Don’t tempt me! I really need
to talk to you. Wanna meet downstairs for something to drink?” Tranissa
suggested.
“Hot and
strong… sure. I will see you down
there.” Jeff said as he hung up the phone
Tranissa pulled on her Deadman,
Inc sweatshirt and placed on her shoes. She reached for the room key and moved
to exit the room. She walked over to Mark and moved the covers back a bit.
Tranissa used the sheet to wipe the sweat from his forehead. She then leaned
down and kissed him. “I’ll be back, Mark!” She whispered as he grunted and
turned over. Tranissa walked to the door and left. Mark opened his eyes and
realized Tranissa had left to go somewhere with Jeff. He did not understand how
those two had a bond but they did. He noticed that Tranissa had left her stuff
on the table. He also realized that Tranissa was like a wife to him. She took
care of him better than Sara.
As he moved to organize her
things and place them away, he saw her notebook was open. Mark felt like he had
found her diary. She wrote in it but lately she always wrote before she went to
bed. Mark stacked everything up and went to close her notebook. He stopped as
he noticed that she had written his name. Mark sat down as he began to read
some of what she had written.
All I want is for Mark to hold
me. I want him to love me like before. However things have changed and will
always remain changed. He is married to Sara. I could have prevented this. How
you ask? By admitting to him that I loved him and thought
about him when we were apart. By telling him that just the touch of his
hand made me feel loved. Now I am contempt to live in my own prison. Where I
can see what I want but can never have.
Mark sat back in the chair and
rubbed his chest. Glenn had told him that Tranissa was in love with him. But
Mark refused to believe it. Tranissa never admitted that she loved him. Yeah,
she would say it when they had sex. But he could never get her just to say it.
“What’s next Calloway? What next?” He asked himself as he moved to the bathroom.
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Part 2
Jeff sat and watched Tranissa
add sugar and honey to her hot tea. “Isn’t the journal helping?” Jeff asked.
“Yeah, I mean I can write my
mental thinking but the emotions are still there. It hurts when I am in the
same room with him and I hear him say I love you, Sara! Do you know how
difficult that is? I want him to say that to me.” Tranissa admitted as Jeff
took her hand.
“You need to tell him what your
heart feels. You tried to solve the situation by eradicating yourself. Why
don’t you allow mark to choose who he wants?” Jeff suggested as Tranissa looked
away.
But you try to do
What's right
And I know deep down inside
That I really wanna be
There by your side
But I can't stand to
See you cry
Not when it's because of me
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Mark could not go back to sleep.
He had all these emotions in his head. He debated over and over for the past
three hours if Tranissa had confessed her feelings would he have still married
Sara. He had called the only man he trusted. Glenn told him basically to
confront her in a nice way. Mark sighed as he thought about what that meant
exactly. He knew one thing for sure Tranissa never stopped caring about him.
She always made sure he was alright. She put up with his bitching and moaning
about his hips hurting. Tranissa even massaged cramps that happened in the
middle of the night. She always checked on him, always.
Mark sighed as he finished the
cup of water he was drinking. He got up to place the cup back in the bathroom
as he heard Jeff and Tranissa at the door.
“Trannie,
tell him and let him choose.” Jeff said as Tranissa sighed and nodded.
“Till in the morning sometime…
tell Matt hey for me.” Tranissa said as she opened the door. She noticed that
Mark was in the bathroom. Tranissa smiled as she noticed that he had
straightened up her stuff for her. She moved to put her things into her
messenger bag and noticed her notebook on the very top. She sighed as she
noticed what was on the page. It was all about Mark.
As Tranissa thought about
leaving, Mark stepped from the bathroom. Tranissa moved to get her pajamas.
“I take it there are no
appearances tomorrow?” Mark said as he noticed Tranissa take her shirts off.
“No, just the show
then you are free to go home.” Tranissa said as she got the chills.
“Yeah, I guess. What are you
going to go on your time off?” Mark questioned as she continued to watch her
undress.
“Umm… sleep. Wash clothes and
may be I will go to the movies or something.” Tranissa answered as she pulled
on her top then her bottoms. Mark wanted to ask her right then and there.
Better yet he wanted to grab her and hold her. He sighed as she walked into the
bathroom.
When it's over
I'll never love another
I'm always thinking of her
I'm doing this because her
I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't wanna
Let her see me cry
Tranissa always took forever
just to get into bed. She brushed her teeth at least twenty times. Then she
brushed her hair. Plus her daily facial took forever. Mark sat and thought
about her. He loved her so much. Even when he is with Sara.
Tranissa was on his mind. Tranissa always got mad when he would call on their
days off. He just wanted to hear her voice. He always kept a picture of her
with him. He has the one of her with Tigger from
Tranissa walked into the room
and noticed Mark engaged deep in thought. She reached in her bag for her scrunchie and began to pull her up. “No, leave it down.”
Mark whispered before he kissed her neck.
“Mark, we can’t do this.”
Tranissa declared as she moved away from him. Mark refused to deny what he
wanted for so long.
“Nissa,
tell me that you don’t want me to take you in my arms and make love to you?”
Mark questioned as he pressed her against the table.
“Mark, you are married to Sara
for one. And for another, I cannot make love to you and then act like things
are cool.” Tranissa said as she moved up on the table in attempts to maneuver
away from him.
Mark took a deep breath and
placed his hands on her hips. “TEll me how you really
feel. If you don’t love me, then next week we will have separate rooms. I will
never touch you in this manner again. If you love me, then you go home with me
and work out the details.” Mark said as Tranissa looked away.
Let him decide! echoed all in her head. “Mark, I umm… I … really care for
you. I mean it hurts me that we are in the same room and I can’t touch you.”
Tranissa paused as she ran her hands up his chest. “Knowing
in my heart that no one would or could replace you. I love you, Mark. I
love you so much it kills me.” Tranissa admitted as Mark immediately took her
in his arms. Tranissa wrapped her legs around him. She ran her hands through
his hair. Tranissa placed kisses on his neck. Mark kissed at the opening of her
top as he laid her on the bed.
“I guess we have a long night
ahead of us.” Mark said as he undressed her.
“We have at least two years to
make up for,” Tranissa said as she leaned up to kiss him.
Looking out the window
And wonderin' why
Did we have to
Say all those things
That we said last night
Baby
Tranissa looked out the window as
she listened to Mark on his phone. She watched most of the guys and girls
walking to their cars. She laughed as she noticed Matt and Amy walking to their
car. They hugged and kissed basically did couple stuff. She felt her heart
rejoice as she realized that soon would be her and Mark. “Well we are going to Nissa’s and pack up her apartment. We should be there on
Thursday.” Mark said as he hung up the phone. He looked up and smiled at
Tranissa. He knew that last night was overwhelming for her.
“Are you hungry?” Tranissa asked
as Mark walked up behind her.
“I thought I ate plenty of you
earlier.” Mark whispered as he kissed her neck.
“No, no, Deadman, I am talking
about food.” Tranissa teased.
“Yeah, come on! By the way, I
like it when you say Deadman.” Mark said as they walked out the room. Tranissa
stopped and waited outside while Mark grabbed the keys.
“There’s my girl!” Jeff said, as
Tranissa looked his way.
“There’s my boy!” Tranissa said
as they hugged each other.
“Damn, you rode the Deadman last
night, huh?” Jeff teased as he pulled at her shirt collar.
“Yeah, I followed your advice
okay.” Tranissa admitted as Jeff just smiled.
“Is this a private party or can
I eat with you guys?” Jeff asked.
“I don’t care.” Tranissa
answered as she heard Mark’s cell ring.
“So where are things with you
guys?” Jeff questioned trying to divert Tranissa’s
attentions.
“Well, we are flying home and
then I am moving in with him.” Tranissa said as she smiled.
“Are you serious? I will be
there as soon as possible!” Mark said as Tranissa and Jeff walked into the
hotel room.
“Is everything okay?” Jeff
questioned as Tranissa knew immediately what was happening.
“Can you give us a couple of
minutes?” Mark asked as he stopped packing and looked at Tranissa. “Nissa, Sara was in a bad accident and …” Mark paused as
Tranissa rolled her eyes and walked over to the window.
“Is this where you say you can’t
leave her now, not in the condition that she is in?” Tranissa questioned as
Mark noticed the tears beginning to roll down her face.
I don't wanna say goodbye
So I'm just standing here
Wondering why
Just don't like to
See when you cry
So I'm say goodbye
“Don’t cry, Tranissa, please. I
have to go. She’s my wife. Don’t you understand that?” Mark protested as
Tranissa turned away from the window.
“You know I do understand.
Apparently I am just your ass while you are on the road. I don’t know why I
thought things would change.” Tranissa said as Mark moved to hold her. Tranissa
moved away from him quickly. “No, pack your shit and go home to your wife,”
Tranissa said as Mark did. Tranissa stood, turned back to the window and shook
her head. She was still the naive little girl he had made her out to be.
Mark felt something inside of
him break as he noticed Tranissa wipe the tears from her face. It killed him
because once again he had broken heart. Last night was magical to him. He did
not want to leave this or Tranissa. But Sara knew what buttons to push and how
to keep Mark coming back guilty. “Tranissa, I am going now. I am thinking Jeff
can take you to the airport. I will call you tomorrow, okay? I love you!” Mark
said as Tranissa moaned loudily.
“Good-bye, Mark!” Tranissa said
unemotionally and impersonally at the window.
“Nissa,
I love you!” Mark said one last time before he left.
Jeff walked in after Mark had
walked to the elevator and noticed Tranissa lying on the bed. “It’s going to be
okay, Trannie. I promise!” Jeff said as he rubbed her
back.
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Part 3
If you think 'cause
I packed your stuff
That inside I ain't really
Really cracking up
'Cause you're wrong
Tranissa walked through her apartment. She had told Mark to come by and get his
stuff. Pictures she could handle. However, his clothes, shoes and other
personal shit had to go. Tranissa moved towards the bar and poured herself some
Courvoisier and Smirnoff raspberry twist. She had practiced what she was going
to say to
Tranissa walked to the door. She chuckled at the fact that he was on time. She
opened the door and realized she was not as prepared as she had hoped.
“Nissa,
you’re drinking?” Mark questioned as Tranissa immediately put her wall of
defense back up.
“I am a grown woman or have you
not noticed that? Over there is your stuff.” Tranissa said as Mark walked over
to the box.
“Nissa,
some of this stuff was gifts. I can’t talk this back.” Mark protested.
“Yeah I would hate to have to
explain that to Sara.” Tranissa said as she sat on the love seat.
I just hide it good
'Cause I know that's
What you need girl
And there's more to life
Than loving yourself
You gotta learn to
Love somebody else, yeah
And that's why I
Do the things that I do
“Does it
take away the pain to be spiteful to me?” Mark questioned as Tranissa looked at
him. He always knew where to stick her.
“Does it make it better to
string me along while you play house with Sara and then share a bed with me on
the road?” Tranissa shouted back.
“Why can’t you see pass
yourself?” Mark questioned as he picked up the box.
“NO, why can’t you see pass
yourself? I see me and I see others. I am sorry if when I saw you I saw love. I
loved you despite everything. I am sorry if now I appear to be a bitch. I can’t
be hurt anymore, Mark. You can show yourself out.” Tranissa said as she moved
to her bedroom.
When it's over
I'll never love another
I'm always thinking of her
I'm doing this because her
Mark looked n the box and placed
it down. He followed Tranissa into her room. “Tranissa, if I walk out of here
without you. I can never love another because I will always think of you, and
how I am doing this because of you.” Mark declared as Tranissa looked at him.
“Why? Do you think I deserve
better? Is there someone other than you for me? I know whom I need. I need you,
Mark. I am not me without you.” Tranissa said as she felt the tears welt up.
She looked away because she did not want him to see her cry.
“Yes, I believe there is someone
better for you. He is younger and not on his last leg. I know deep in my heart
that you deserve way better than what this Deadman is offering. I made you
believe that I am the best thing since peanut butter.” Mark said as he walked
up behind her and held her.
“So this is goodbye because it
sure as hell feels like it.” Tranissa said as Mark felt a tear fall.
“No, I am going to take you home
with me.” Mark said as he turned her to face him. Tranissa sighed and broke
away.
“The last time I heard that Sara
had an accident. S o once again I apologize if I am down on that idea.” Mark
knew he deserved that. He pulled out his cell phone as Tranissa walked to
refill her glass.
I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't wanna
Let her see me cry
Looking out the window
And wonderin' why
Did we have to
Say all those things
Tranissa sat on her couch and noticed Mark standing at the window. “Excuse me,
Mark, get your shit and leave please.” Tranissa said hatefully as she got off
the couch and walked over to him. For once, she got to him. He had nothing to
say. No catchy comebacks. She had being holding back anger from him for too
long and now she could not contain it. “Damn it, Mark, get the fuck ou…” Tranissa began as she turned him around and noticed
his tears.
“I was going to come here and
get my things and leave but I could not do that. I had reneged on a promise to
you.” Mark started as he pulled out some papers. “I could not stay in a
marriage that was based on lies. When the one I truly love, she is alone with a
broken heart. This is probably the lamest proposal but in six months I am free
to be with someone and I want it to be you.” Mark said as Tranissa took it all
in.
“But Mark, I mean damn.”
Tranissa managed as she moved to sit down.
“Do you remember what you said
to me the night before I left? You said it hurts you that we are in the same
room and you can’t touch me. Knowing in your heart, that no
one would or could replace me. You also said you love me. Tranissa, you
love me so much that it kills you.” Mark said as he took Tranissa’s
face in his hands. “I love you so much. If you think I am leaving without you,
then you are asking me to take my own life.” Mark said as he kissed Tranissa.
“You are going home with me.” Tranissa sat confused as her doorbell rang.
Mark walked back in with boxes. “I want to know what has to come with you
tonight and what could possible wait?” Mark asked as Tranissa sat up on the
couch and looked blankly at him.
“Of course, my clothes and
toiletries, I am not sure about everything elsse. I
mean do I need to take furniture?” Tranissa questioned.
“Umm, the living room stuff
could go downstairs. The bed is optional. Personally, I think we should
allow the movers I hired to come in here and do their jobs. Go in there
and grab that bag on your bed." Mark demanded as Tranissa walked up to
Mark and looked in his piercing green eyes.
"I thought you would never
ask." Tranissa said as she stroked his face and walked to her bedroom.
***Later that night***
Tranissa walked through the
house. She was amazed that she was going to live here. She was more
amazed that her and Mark were finally complete. She
arrived in the bedroom and smiled as Mark lied in the bed. "I
noticed there were more pictures of me than Sara. Are you sure she lived
here?" Tranissa teased as Mark smirked at her.
"You were everywhere I am.
And I want you to lay with me." Tranissa smiled as she disrobed herself.
"You want me just to lay
with you, right?" Tranissa teased as she turned on the radio.
"You know what I really
wanted to do!" Mark said as he pulled Tranissa into a kiss. Mark moved
Tranissa on her back as the radio echoed in the room.
Ain't no one in this world
That can ever take you place
All the love that we shared
It can never be erased
And I know that
That it hurts so bad
And I'm sorry, 'cause
You're the best I've had