Behind Blue Eye's

Author: PaulenaK ~ toukalah@hotmail.com

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Everything WWE belongs to Vince McMahon. Song used is ‘Behind Blue Eye's' by Limp Bizkit.

Spoiler: The Canadian one dollar bet between Jericho and Christian.

Summary: Jericho reflects…

 

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Behind Blue Eye's

 

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~No one knows what it's like~

~To be the bad man~

~To be the sad man~

~Behind blue eye's~

 

 

Your stare goes straight through me. Your body passes right past my own without so much as a twitch of acknowledgement. I hear your laughter and see you surround yourself with the people you love.

 

And I'm glad.

 

I'm glad you’re not in this desolate black hole where I am now. A hole that only got deeper that night you overheard Christian and I talking. I wish now I could take back everything I said then. I wish now I had been honest with Christian about how I really felt instead of letting my competitive side reign free.

 

Now I'm a mess, sitting here drowning in the filth I created.

 

 

~No one knows what it's like~

~To be hated~

~To be faded~

~To telling all the lie's~

 

 

I was weak.

 

Not much of an excuse I admit, but it's all I have to fall back on.

 

I allied myself with one who had power and authority, someone who had the mindset of the devil and the backing to see all those that rose against him crumble to dust.

 

As they did.

 

As you did.

 

 

~But my dream's they aren’t as empty~

~As my car just seems to be~

~I have hour's, only lonely~

~When love is vengeance~

~That's never free~

 

 

I have my memories... my dreams of our time together. In my heart that's the reality and the part I'm playing now is the dream.

 

I realise now that my time with you was real. As real as my life is going to get anyway and now... now I'm hollow and sparse. A nomad destined to follow you... destined never to have you.

 

 

~No one knows what it's like~

~To feel these feeling's~

~Like I do... and I blame you~

 

 

You don’t know what I go through week in and week out. To see you and not help but remember that at one time you were mine. To see your face light up when I entered a room, to know that the smile on your face was directed at me and only me.

 

Yet, now it's directed at everyone 'but' me.

 

 

~No one bite's back as hard~

~On there anger~

~None of my pain will...~

~It can’t show through~

 

 

I grin and I bare it, I mean, what else can I do? This is the only way I know of to make sure Bischoff doesn't get his slimy hands on you.

 

This may seem like the coward's way, Trish, but believe me, it's the only way.

 

 

~But my dream's they aren’t as empty~

~As my car just seems to be~

~I have hour's, only lonely~

~When love is vengeance~

~That's never free~

 

 

But in sleep I visit you and you welcome me with open arms. Only there can I find the peace I need, only there can I be one with you.

 

 

~No one knows what it's like~

~To be mistreated~

~To be defeated~

~Behind blue eye's~

 

 

I hurt you know, so much. Deep down I'm but a little boy in need of affection, the affection I found when with you. The affection I now crave as I sit here alone.

 

 

~And no one knows how to say~

~That they're sorry and don’t worry~

~I'm not telling lie's~

 

 

I've lost count of the time's I've tried to approach you, only to balk and fail. Fleeing to a deserted part of the arena where I can let down my guard and allow the pent up pain and frustration my heart feel's flow free in a torrent of tear's and despair.

 

 

~But my dream's they aren't as empty~

~As my car just seems to be~

~I have hour's, only lonely~

~When love is vengeance~

~That's never free~

 

 

And as I make my way back in amongst the throng of Bischoff's cronies, I can do nothing else but plaster my well known grin back in place.

 

Never thought I'd feel this way, or more importantly... I never thought I'd feel this way without you.

 

~No one knows what it's like~

~To be the bad man~

~To be the sad man~

~Behind blue eye's~

 

 

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