Beautiful

Rating: PG-13

Summary: Actions hurt, but the hurt from words is lasting.

Disclaimer: I own no one! Diva's property of the WWE, song used is 'Beautiful' by Christina Aguilera

~Denotes Song Lyric's~

Beautiful

~Don't look at me~

She ran the brush through her hair in smooth even strokes feeling the brush massaging her scalp, her dark tresses flowing over her shoulders and down her back. Staring at the image reflected back at her through the mirror, she looked very much like what everyone called her - Crazy.

~Everyday is so wonderful, then suddenly, it's hard to breathe~

~Now and then I get insecure, from all the pain~

~I'm so ashamed~

Her makeup which had been perfect before her match was now caked to her face. She had won, but that made no difference, she was still on the outside looking in and instead of the congratulations she had dreamed of she got hateful glares and insults for taking the title away from the WWE’s favourite diva.

~I am beautiful no matter what they say~

~Words can't bring me down~

~I am beautiful in every single way~

~Yes words can't bring me down~

~So don't you bring me down today~

Knowing she would never be good enough for them... never be apart of them she watched as if in a daze as her mascara ran down her cheeks to drip off her chin onto her nice clean white t-shirt. Reaching her hand forward to pick up her deep red lipstick she applies it to her lips, running it first over the bottom lip, then the top only to continue the trail up under her cheekbone then back down doing the same on the other side.

~To all your friends you're delirious~

~So consumed in all your doom~

~Trying hard to fill the emptiness, the pieces gone~

~Left the puzzle undone, ain't that the way it is?~

She turns her head to the side to admire her handy work and gave her reflection a nod of approval after all she was 'the crazy one', 'the jealous freak living in their golden girl’s shadow' right? That’s what they all said she had heard it with her own two ears. And if that weren’t enough their looks and whispers hidden behind uplifted hands sent the message 'your not welcome' to her loud and clear.

~You are beautiful no matter what they say~

~Words can't bring you down~

~Cause you are beautiful in every single way~

~Yes words can't bring you down~

~So don't you bring me down today~

She knew all the tricks of the trade, after all this kind of behaviour had been happening for years, the only thing that changed was the surroundings. She knew the words 'Would you like some chewing gum?' really meant 'You have bad breath' or 'I would love to do your make up' meant 'You’re ugly' but that didn’t make the wall she had around herself any thicker. Things still got through... little things...

~We're the song inside the tune, full of beautiful mistakes~

~And everywhere we go, the sun will always shine~

~And tomorrow we might awake on the other side~

They didn’t know she knew what they all thought... and she didn’t care... well... not until she was here... sitting in front of the mirror in her locker room with the door closed and mascara running down her face... that’s when she cared.

~Don't you bring me down today~

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